Today was pretty laid back. I just had a hair appointment and went to the dentist. I usually love going to the dentist, but today it was miserable. The nurse was a tad too rough, and there was too much blood for my liking. After my hair appointment I went to Smoothie King to see Emma before I came home to do laundry. We were just standing in there talking, and this guy came in. He was super tan, orange tan, and had the spiky hair and oddly pouty lips look about him. I couldn’t help but laugh at him. He asked for a large smoothie, and as usual Emma asked if he knew how big that was, and he was like, “Its alright. I can handle it. Bigger is better.” All while still wearing his sunglasses. He was he definition of a douche bag.
This afternoon I hung out with Liam and went to dinner with Emma. Emma hung out here for a few hours tonight and we just sat around and talked. I deleted over 900 people off of my Facebook, and that felt awesome. I really can’t think of anything interesting from my day today to share. Oh well. Tomorrow will be a good day.
Today was lame. Ill just leave it at that. All I did was work clothes shopping, dinner with dad, TSI and Kickbacks. My mom and I talked about my dad being engaged today. That was pretty much the highlight of my day. She told me this afternoon before I went to go have dinner with my dad, because she apparently knew and wanted to give me a heads up. I told her that I have known, and I told her about how I found out about it. I cant tell if she is upset or not about it. I am pissed though because when my grandmother died, she left me a lot of really beautiful jewelry that I was supposed to get when I turned 18. I am 20 now, and I have never seen any of it. Apparently my dad gave Kathleen one of my rings as her engagement ring. Tonight at dinner I told my dad that my mom knows, and we started to talk about it for a bit. My mom had told me about the ring thing, so I asked him if he had bought her a ring. And he said no, that he was still looking. I told him that I know she has a ring, and he fessed up that he gave her one of Nana Helen’s. I made sure he knew that its my ring, and I told him that I am 20 now and I want all of my jewelry back to my by August. It is mine, and I do not want that woman wearing my ring. After diner Jenn and I went to TSI for a cookout then Kickbacks for dessert. Both places were pretty dead though.
There is something that has been bothering me for a while, that I feel like the majority of my friends do. With my core group of friends, we are all addicted to our cell phones. With any of them, we go out to eat and we are texting almost the whole time, and it’s all right. We all have an understanding that we aren’t being rude, and we are still paying attention. With a few people I feel like that has been abused lately. Like out to dinner and I am trying to have a conversation and I am being completely ignored. Also, lately I have felt like a bunch of people I have been spending time with choose to constantly talk about how popular they are. That was an odd sentence to word. So many times lately I have heard “Oh my god so man people just texted me,” “So many people just asked me to hang out today,” “My phone wont stop blowing up,” etc. I feel that is just one of those things that you shouldn’t feel the need to talk about. Maybe that is just me, since most people do that. It makes me feel bad because I don’t have many friends left in Florida, and when ever I am down here I have a small pool of people to spend time with, and hearing about other people’s amazing social lived makes me feel pretty shitty. Give me Virginia, and I am set, but not so much here anymore. I don’t know if I am over reacting, and this is just normal, or if it only applies to my friends. Everyone seems to be doing this lately.
I have been thinking about some things more lately, and these small things are really starting to get on my nerves. Just stupid small things that no one notices, but they are all really huge to me.
I leave for Ft. Lauderdale in a few days, on Sunday. I got some clothes today for work. I have mixed feelings about going still. I will only get a total of 4 weeks in Jacksonville this summer, and I am really not okay with that. I had a rough year at school, and I need down time. I know I am going to enjoy this job and learn a lot; I just don’t want to deal with the stress and the work I have to do for school to get credit for this on top of normal work. I am trying to be positive about it though. I was talking to Colton earlier, and I told him about my job:
Colton Lane: What are u doing after that?? Kate Gorman: living in ft Lauderdale for 2 months Colton Lane: Damn Colton Lane: Party Kate Gorman: haha i wish Colton Lane: What are u gonna be doing there? Kate Gorman: working Colton Lane: Oh yeah? Doing what?? Kate Gorman: marketing for a hospital. its gonna be rough Colton Lane: That sounds like a grown ass lady job Kate Gorman: hahaha Kate Gorman: I like that Colton Lane: Yeah for real though Colton Lane: That sounds like a legit job Kate Gorman: its an internship, so its more of a fake real job Colton Lane: I am proud of u Kate. Kate Gorman: Thanks Colton Lane: I'm for real like none of my friends ever do anything with the lives. But like it seems like u are Colton Lane: That's cool Kate Gorman: thanks. Im trying. Colton Lane: Yeah I realize that may seem a little weird to hear Colton Lane: But.... I'm kinda wasted so its alright lol
That was nice to hear, except for the last part….
Tomorrow I have random appointments then hopefully hanging out with Emma. I just realized that I have been listening to the Beauty and the Beast soundtrack in the background while typing this, without realizing it. Hm…. Changing. Back to my current favorite song, which SURPRISE, brings the livelavalive video I am in love with right now. I love Ghostland Observatory, and I love that he used this song in a video.
Today was just hilarious. This morning Jenn, my mom and Liam and I went out to Ponte Vedra and just layed out by the pool. I actually got some sun, unfortunately my arms are burned and my nose is a little red. Nothing too exciting happened while we were there, and pretty much all day Jenn and I were trying to figure out what we were going to do tonight. Hardcore Prom was at the Pit and I did not want to go at all. If I was right about the bands that were going to be playing, I would have seen a lot of people who I never want to see again.
I finally decided to go, and we get there and there were so many people there. It was crazy. And of course since Jenn and I haven’t been going to shows for a while, and it was out at the beach, we knew about two people there at first. We eventually went inside and we saw a bunch of our friends there. Jason lives nearby so he came to hang out, and eventually it got to be more fun. I saw a bunch of people who I never care to see again, and although my stomach flipped a few times, it wasn’t nearly as bad as I had expected. The two that I thought would put me in tears were always in my line of vision, and that sucked. One noticed me and tried to get my attention but I just ignored him. I am done dealing with that.
There was some girl who I don’t know that was really nice who had a birthday today. So in celebration of being 18, a bunch of people were taking her to the strip club and Jenn and I ended up going too. It was hilarious. We went to Dollhouse, where Rob and I have always wanted to go. We met a stripper named Renee who was very nice, and very talented. Thanks to Axell for paying for Jenn and I to go.
Tonight I got a call from a friend from school saying that a girl in our year was in a bad accident and she’s not doing too well. So many people have been getting hurt lately I hate it. Keri was in an accident, and it left her with massive internal bleeding and apparently part of her leg had to be amputated. If anyone actually reads this, please pray for her and her family.
This morning I woke up to my aunt and cousin coming over to wait on UPS. UPS said they would be there between 10 and 11 and nor surprisingly they didn't show. But at like 11:30 there was a knock on the door and surprisingly it was the UPS man. We spent the next few hours hanging art. We got a bunch of original Duaivs and an original Peter Max, which I was basically salivating over. I never thought I would own a Peter Max. He is easily the most famous living artist, and when he dies he is going to be as famous as Warhol. The house looks amazing with all of the new art. There were these terrible pictures of me in the bathroom in a bathing suit from when I was 15 and those got replaced. Thank god. Marsha loaded up her car with a bunch more pieces, some Duaivs and an original copy of a Rembrandt sketch. It's so amazing.
This afternoon all I did was sleep. I got no sleep last night and this morning I was up far too early for my liking. This evening my mom, Liam, Jenn and I all came out to Ponte Vedra to have dinner. My aunt made all of my favorites. It was delicious. Jenn and I left Ponte Vedra and came back to my house and got changed and went out. Justin was having a party at his house and Jarrett told me to go out there. Last time I was at Justin’s was over thanksgiving break. It was easily the nest night of my thanksgiving break. It was just me, Jarrett, Perry, and Justin and some other guy, and they were all so wasted and stoned. Perry was so stoned he was asleep on the couch the whole time I was there and I couldn't wake him up. So tonight there were a few more guys there, including Trevor who I see almost every time I go to the mall. Jenn be I realized that we have never played beer pong together and we fixed that. Last time I was there Jarrett made me play even though I told him that I am easily the worst beer pong player in the world, and he made me play again last night. Right before we played and during my heart started freaking out. My heart has been fine once last summer and having it randomly race like it did tonight really scared me. It was worse than it was last summer, and I could barely breathe. I don't know why that was happening. I barely drink any caffeine now and there was mo reason for it to do that. It was scary.
After we left Justin’s we went to TSI. Jenn ad I were driving around downtown trying to find a parking spot to go to VyStar, and the whole time I was about to pee myself. We finally got to TSI and Jenn was changing her clothes so I peed in the corner of the parking lot. I can't remember the last time I did that, but tonight I was pretty proud of myself for some really odd reason.
Anyways. TSI was fun. We danced and hung out and there weren't very many people there. My heart kept racing the whole night and it was hard to ignore. We were sittng by the pool tables towards the end of the night and this guy asked to play with him. He was so drunk it was hilarious. He didn't understand that you have to put money into the pool table to get the balls out. We finally started to play and that's when the creepy began. While either Jenn or I was playing our turn, he would get behind either of us that were still standing there and rub our backs and just scoot towards us when we moved away. When he talked he got so close our noses touched and I had nowhere to back up. When we were dome playing he asked me "so you want my number or what?" haha ew. Jenn came over and we just laughed at him. We decided to go dance and left him then all of the sudden he was creeping right behind us. It was funny yet creepy.
My heart still has me worried. If it happens again I will have to go back to the hospital. Which is not something I want to do. Obviously.
Tomorrow Jenn and I are going back out to Ponte Vedra to lay out by the pool and have a cook out. I didn't update my Daily Booth today either. I can't slack this early in the summer
When my mom and aunt went on the Disney cruise in March, they bought a bunch of art from one of the auctions. There was an original Peter Max included, which I would kill for. UPS has been being super difficult about getting it all to us, constantly saying that they came and no one was here to sign for it, although they kept coming by when no one is home, and we told them when we would be home and what not. Finally, they said that they would definitely bring it by today. So I had to get u this morning at 8 and sit around all day waiting for them to deliver everything. I couldn’t shower or go back to sleep since I knew that if I did, they would come in those few minutes. So basically I did nothing toady. And did UPS ever come? Of course not. My aunt and Patrick and Granny Franny all came over later and we got dinner and continued to wait for UPS. After a bunch of phone calls, UPS promised that they would deliver the art between 10 and noon tomorrow. And I will be up and waiting for it then.
Tonight Jenn and I went to Steamworks. It was kind of boring and it ended up back firing on us. Jenn saw someone she didn’t want to see, and we left. I don’t really want to get into all of that here though. We are now sitting at my house, eating brownies and watching Twilight.
I made a magical discovery tonight. The Three Wolf Moon T-Shirt on Amazon. The comments are completely hilarious. Best one:
"This item has wolves on it which makes it intrinsically sweet and worth 5 stars by itself, but once I tried it on, that's when the magic happened. After checking to ensure that the shirt would properly cover my girth, I walked from my trailer to Wal-mart with the shirt on and was immediately approached by women. The women knew from the wolves on my shirt that I, like a wolf, am a mysterious loner who knows how to 'howl at the moon' from time to time (if you catch my drift!). The women that approached me wanted to know if I would be their boyfriend and/or give them money for something they called meth. I told them no, because they didn't have enough teeth, and frankly a man with a wolf-shirt shouldn't settle for the first thing that comes to him. I arrived at Wal-mart, mounted my courtesy-scooter (walking is such a drag!) sitting side saddle so that my wolves would show. While I was browsing tube socks, I could hear aroused asthmatic breathing behind me. I turned around to see a slightly sweaty dream in sweatpants and flip-flops standing there. She told me she liked the wolves on my shirt, I told her I wanted to howl at her moon. She offered me a swig from her mountain dew, and I drove my scooter, with her shuffling along side out the door and into the rest of our lives. Thank you wolf shirt. Pros: Fits my girthy frame, has wolves on it, attracts women Cons: Only 3 wolves (could probably use a few more on the 'guns'), cannot see wolves when sitting with arms crossed, wolves would have been better if they glowed in the dark."
Tomorrow I am supposed to go shopping with my mom to get clothes for my internship, but I want to go to the Jazz festival at the Landing. I have never been before. I don’t know, we shall see. All in all today was pretty uneventful, aside from tonight. I am going to go enjoy Twilight and try not to fall asleep. I got a Daily Booth, too. http://dailybooth.com/kgoreee Creep me there too. Hoorah.
Last thing, my scarf I ordered from ModCloth came in, and I am in love with it.
Today was another rough day. It started off pretty good though. Emily and I went to the mall, and lunch at Maginot’s. Seriously, she is the cheapest date ever. Combined, our bill at Maggiano's was $12. Awesome. That was also the only thing I have eaten all day, and its 1 AM and I may pass out. I am making some Texas Toast right now those, and it is most likely burning. The microwave broke today, so all of my left over’s from Kickbacks and Tijuana Flats cant be reheated. I am quite sad about that. My toast is most likely burning right now. Oh well. After Emily and I got back I finally took my commission over to Eileen’s. I was getting frustrated with the whole situation and I just don’t want to get into it here. Although I may not be getting paid for it. FML.
This after noon there was a tree dedication at St. Marks for Allison. Everyone has accepted what happened and they are dealing with it and being exposed to it every day, but I haven’t been home. That was really hard for me to do today. The second I go tout of the car, I saw Jessie Drew. My stomach just fell, I have barely talked to her since Allison died, and I had no idea what to say to her. We talked for a minute, and I ordered the shirt that Faction Habit made for Allison. We were there for a bit, and then I saw Drew for the first time. My heart literally broke. I feel so terrible for her. I have no idea what she is going through. The dedication was so sweet. The third graders at St. Marks chipped in and bought a live oak tree and benches and the whole area behind the office and by the playground is going to be in memory of Allison. They left a hole around the tree, and had the third graders come and put some dirt in. After the third graders, a lot of people went and did it too, and I started to cry when the Haramis’ and Jessie ad Hodson did it. I can’t image what this family is going through. Right after the dedication everything really sunk in. Everyone was happy and everything and I was miserable. I haven’t been around and it never really sunk in until today, seeing Drew and Jessie and the family. They found a beautiful statue that is going to go in the courtyard too, a ballerina to celebrate Allison’s spirit. It is beautiful.
I came home, cried, and then just passed out. I woke up at 11, and now I wont sleep for the rest of the night most likely. I am video chatting with Mikey right now, and about to enjoy my delicious toast. I talked with my mom for a long time tonight about Drew and Allison and about how they are doing. Everything has been really hard for them of course, and I just could not imagine what they are going through. They have been in my thoughts ad prayers since April 17 and they always will be.
Yet again, a Mitchell Davis video totally relates to my life.
Today marked day four of the never ending rain. I checked Weather Channel and it is supposed to rain through the 29th. It was fun at first, but now the roads are basically just huge puddles and I do not appreciate that.
Last night I went to sleep with my window open, listening to the rain. I was out so fast, and I loved it. I woke up this morning at 8, to the rain, and my stomach was eating itself. So finally around 9:30 Jenn and I met for breakfast. I came home, got back in bed, and started to read, although I fell asleep again and didn’t wake up until about 3. Liam has been having trouble lately with school and our dad and whatnot, so he went to Denise today just to talk. I don’t really want to get into all of that here, but it was helpful. Afterwards we went to the Brick for dinner, and then I came home and went right out to dinner number 2 with Rob to Sake House. I have been spending more time with him lately and I am glad about that. It is far more frequent than other times I have been home. He gave me my birthday presents tonight, which I love. He got be an awesome flannel, which is light enough to wear in the summer, and a photo hanging thing, which he said is to only have pictures of him. Selfish Rob. Haha. The best thing by far was a new Book. Senior year we had little notebooks that we would write in and throw to each other during class, and in our lockers and for some reason we thought it was the best thing ever. So now we have a new book, and I cant wait to get started with that again.
Book and shirt.
Tonight also marked night 3 of going to Kickbacks. This time we actually ate, and I had some amazing potatoes and pasta, and Jenn said that her omelet was the best thing she had ever eaten. So I think that is a winner on the food aspect, along with social. Hoorah! In the back of their menu they have the “Vintage” section, which has things like Ramen noodles, Spaghetti-O’s, Hamburger Helper, Fluffernutter sandwiches, and a bunch more. That’s adorable ad hilarious. Even better, they have the Hamburger Helper du jour. I didn’t really do much today but it was relaxing. Tomorrow I have to get my camera fixed, since as of today it no longer opens. And I am taking Emily to the mall. In the rain. FML.
I am going to go to bed, reading with the window open yet again. This morning Jenn had big news, and she said her whole story, I commented, then presented my big news: "I slept with my window open last night." FAIL.
Last thing, Rob and I were Facebooking back and forth today with Texts From Last Night, and I accidentally posted one as my status that made me look terrible. Immediately I got texts and status comments from some creepers. It was an awesome five minutes until I realized that facebook and I were obviously not getting along. Then I cleared it but forget to delete it from my news feed, so it was still there. It was hilarious, but not the best as a status.
Facebooked TFLN: (931): Also, i'm pretty sure i've had my birth control pill stuck in my throat since like...two pm. So i'll be practicing safe oral sex tonight.
FAIL
Also, I am still going back and watching a lot of Mitchell Davis' videos. I love this one so much.
