Day 70 - Babysit, Pearl

Today was a lazy, but very good day. I woke up around noon and just meandered about the house. I rented Breakfast Club a while back and I just got around to watching it this morning. Then I worked on the pile of terrible movies I bought last week. So pretty much all day I cleaned, babysat Liam, and watched Breakfast Club, Perfect Score, and My Boss’s Daughter.

And, being a Thursday, Jenn and I went to the Pearl. We met up with Josh who bought us Joose, but the AP was out of Red, so he got me orange. Honestly, the orange tasted like the smell of our laundry room the time Liam played outside in the rain with shoes and socks on, then the socks mildewed at the bottom of the laundry hamper without anyone noticing. I was gagging trying to drink it. I have never noticed before, but apparently Joose is an energy drink, so technically I shouldn’t be drinking it because of my heart. And Josh knows this so each time he gets it for me he gives me a little talk about being careful. “Ok thanks Dad.”

Jenn and I have hilarious arguments that emphasize how reckless we are. “I thought you were going to open it for me!” “We are at a red light do it yourself!!”

When we got to the Pearl we just drove around for a bit, and we found a building on fire, and that was exciting. Although immediately afterwards both of us wanted barbeque… Went inside the Pearl, and the first person I saw was Jason Wagner. Awesome. We just stopped talking a few months ago and that was kind of awkward. Right away we went out back and Josh came up to us holding a PBR. Except Josh is 19, with big black X’s on his hands. We were in the middle of telling him to put it down, when he got kicked out. Bye, Josh. There were so many random people at the Pearl tonight. I saw Andrew Harper, who I haven’t seen in a long time. And Kevin. “Oh my god Kate! I haven’t seen you in like 6 years! Are you single?!” Oh my. Haha.

Otherwise it was a very fun, but uneventful night.

Day 13 - Jason, Rob, Adventures

The weather has been getting a lot better lately. Today I took full advantage and went to the beach with Jason. Watched him surf for a bit and just walked around. This evening was the Village dance recital. I wanted to go, but I stayed back with Liam instead. They did a piece just for Allison in the beginning, which was apparently really sweet.



I love how when I am typing “Sweet” into Word it auto corrects to Sweet Briar College. Jason saw the Sweet Briar sticker on my car today and wouldn’t stop making fun of the name. Granted, it is a sort of silly name for a school. And it sounds so girly. Sweet Briar. Pfft.

I found out today that I don’t have to go to Miami for another week. I am so excited about that. I still haven’t unpacked from school, and I don’t feel like I have had very much time getting everything together to head down there. I am glad I have more time to sort everything out. Tomorrow I am supposed to get some stuff from Tenet to complete, like a drug screening and what not.

Tonight Rob and I went to sonic, like old times, and then just drove around trying to figure out what to do. In what he said was our greatest adventure in the last 2 years, we drove though Riverside and Avondale and ended up at the park at Stockton. We recoded a video from Sonic that perfectly shows our relationship. Some people act differently when they are being recorded, but sadly enough this is exactly how Rob and I are. He hit me enough today to leave some intense bruises I’m predicting. We will find out in the morning.

Day 10 - Ponte Vedra, Pit, Dollhouse

Today was just hilarious. This morning Jenn, my mom and Liam and I went out to Ponte Vedra and just layed out by the pool. I actually got some sun, unfortunately my arms are burned and my nose is a little red. Nothing too exciting happened while we were there, and pretty much all day Jenn and I were trying to figure out what we were going to do tonight. Hardcore Prom was at the Pit and I did not want to go at all. If I was right about the bands that were going to be playing, I would have seen a lot of people who I never want to see again.

I finally decided to go, and we get there and there were so many people there. It was crazy. And of course since Jenn and I haven’t been going to shows for a while, and it was out at the beach, we knew about two people there at first. We eventually went inside and we saw a bunch of our friends there. Jason lives nearby so he came to hang out, and eventually it got to be more fun. I saw a bunch of people who I never care to see again, and although my stomach flipped a few times, it wasn’t nearly as bad as I had expected. The two that I thought would put me in tears were always in my line of vision, and that sucked. One noticed me and tried to get my attention but I just ignored him. I am done dealing with that.

There was some girl who I don’t know that was really nice who had a birthday today. So in celebration of being 18, a bunch of people were taking her to the strip club and Jenn and I ended up going too. It was hilarious. We went to Dollhouse, where Rob and I have always wanted to go. We met a stripper named Renee who was very nice, and very talented. Thanks to Axell for paying for Jenn and I to go.

Tonight I got a call from a friend from school saying that a girl in our year was in a bad accident and she’s not doing too well. So many people have been getting hurt lately I hate it. Keri was in an accident, and it left her with massive internal bleeding and apparently part of her leg had to be amputated. If anyone actually reads this, please pray for her and her family.

Day 3 - PVB, Rob, Jason, Emma

I am going to refer to today as "The Day of the Massive Stomach Ache." All day I was thinking about last night and everything that happened, and feeling terrible. I did not talk to Jenn at all, even though I wanted to text her so bad. I feel like that would just make things worse.

This morning I woke up to my Mom making me pancakes, which was wonderful. We went out to Ponte Vedra with Liam for the day, and met up with my grandmother and my cousin Patrick at my aunt's house. We pretty much just sat around and talked, and I had a really long talk with Granny Franny about Sweet Briar. I have decided (more like accepted) that I am miserable there. I realized today when I was talking to Granny about it, that it is a good fit academically, just not socially. I am not going to transfer, but I have been thinking a lot more about graduate school. Working at the hospital this summer will be good, because if it turns out to be something I enjoy, it would be a field I could easily go into right out of school. I want/need to get an MBA, although I will get my Masters and Doctorate in Art History before I am 50. That is my ultimate goal in life. How cool would it be to have a doctorate in Contemporary Art? That is what I would love to do. I love my grandmother so much, and talking to her makes me realize things and sort my thoughts.

We went to the Town Center for lunch and shopping. At Barnes and Noble I got my favorite magazines ever, as well as a new one called FOUND that I uh.... found. I haven’t really looked at it yet but it looks pretty cool. I will be up all night tonight reading that, Artforum, and Art on Paper.

For my birthday my mom got me a gift card to get a new iPhone since mine is a piece of crap and falling apart. Although when I went in my friends there told me to wait a while before I get a new one since there may be a new phone coming out this summer. So me and my good friend Cherry Darling will be sticking together for a bit longer. I guess that’s good, because I still hadn’t thought of a new name for my new phone. My phone now is Cherry Darling (Planet Terror), my Kindle is Dr. Dakota Block (also Planet Terror) and my iPod is Frankenstein. So I will think about that for a while.

I spent some time with Rob tonight, and it was different than it has been for a while. I think a lot about my senior year and how Rob and I spent every moment together, and I really miss that. And tonight it didn't feel forced like it does sometimes. We about peed ourselves when lightning hit right by his house right before we were going to go to the Loop for dinner. (I just realized I left my cup in my car and I am really thirsty....) I got my food and as always, the first thing he did was take a huge bite out of one of my chicken fingers. Although this time it scalded his mouth and the chicken along with a line of slobber fell from his mouth. Just as it happened a women walked in the door and watched the whole thing happen. She just shook her head and laughed, which made the whole situation about a thousand times funnier. After dinner our first thought was "Krispy Kreme," of course. We then discovered the hot sign is on until 10 now, which was thrilling.

After I left Rob's I went to the beach and hung out with Jason for a little bit. It was rainy and gross and the only thing we could figure out to do was to walk on the beach for a while. I felt bad because he has a broken toe and the sand was wet and hard to walk on, but he was a good sport about it. I wasn’t out there very long, and I was driving back home I realized that I hadn’t seen Emma yet, so I called her and met her at the Casbah with two of her friends. That sentence was unnecessarily long. I was there with her for about an hour and I think I am going to do something with her tomorrow.

In the last few days, I have realized something really odd about myself. I guess I realized it a long time ago, but it has been confirmed. I am an observer. In any given situation, I would much rather observe than partake. Like the other night at TSI, I would rather people watch than dance or socialize. I think this is the main thing that makes me so socially awkward. I am fine with that though. It may be part of my creative and artsy side that makes me do it, because I like to image these people’s lives and what they will do when they go home. I wish I could be invisible. I would go out so much and just watch people, never partaking in any of the activities, just observe. I don’t feel like this is creepy in the least bit, because I am not staring and watching, just observing and noting things. Alright that is even creepier.

Overall I had a decent day, but I had this nagging stomach ache all day, thinking about last night. No matter what I was doing, or how hard I was laughing at Rob in pain, I could not get last night out of my head. I have to fix this. I have a phone conference tomorrow morning at 9:30 (I feel so grown up) so I am going to get to sleep. No plans other than that tomorrow for the most part.