Thursday, November 26 - Thanksgiving, Pearl

This morning Liam and I woke up early and went to go pick up our mom from Mandarin, where she ran a half marathon with Traci and Josie. We didn't get to watch her finish, but it was packed. I wouldn't think there would be so many people willing to wake up at the crack of dawn on Thanksgiving to run 13 miles.

we went over to Marsha's house and spent the day cooking and entertaining. Met some family members I didn't know about as well. One was named Lenny, and he reminded me of Lennie from Of Mice and Men. I won him over by showing him how to proberly open a handle of scotch.

After we ate I went to lay down for a few minutes, and woke up about 4 hours later and everyone was gone. Eeeh.

Corbett and AJ and I went to the Pearl tonight. I have never gone without Jenn, and it was weird but nice to just go with a bunch of guys. It was more laid back and I was able to just hang out and people watch. Going to an all girls school I have forgotten how nice it is to just be with guys. There were a bunch of random people there, including Jaclynn (joy).

After we left the Pearl we went to WaHo for some late night/early morning hashbrowns. That was possible the high light of my Thanksgiving, food-wise. We dropped off AJ then went to Target to scope out the Black Friday lines. It was about 3 and already there were a bunch of people sitting outside.

Wednesday, November 25 - PVB, Casbah

Spent the day in Ponte Vedra. I think I am going to refer to today as "Blast from the Past" day. Ryan picked me up from Marsha's and we went out to lunch, and that was fun. I haven't seen him in a few years. We talked about everyone from Episcopal that I completely forgot about, including Alan, who I didnt think I would forget about. But, I did.

After lunch we had Petal's birthday dinner and that was delicious. Apparently AJ has started drinking again and I am worried about him. He didn;t look too good. We shall see what happens with him tomorrow. On the way home Liam randomly asked me "Why dont you hang out with Wyatt anymore?" Little jerk.

After we left the beach Emma came over and we went to the Casbah. We got there and put our name on the list and meandered about. We loitered in front of the Casbah for a bit and decided to walk down to Monty's. Matty was there and Emma went in to see him. I hung out outside, saw the Worsham boys and other people from Episcopal, when my phone buzzed. I looked at it. "Text from Guillermo." What. The. Fuck. "Don't know if you still have my number but I think ou just passed by me at the Casbah - Memo" Holy shit. I have not seen him since we briefly dated in my junior year of high school. Four years. So I talked to him for a bit and that was awkward. I had noticed Edgar, Alan's brother before, and I texted Ryan that he was there. I thought it was weird that I thought about Alan today for the first time in a long while then saw both his brother and cousin in one night. So after we talked to Memo for a bit AJ walked about, all 6'5 of him. Talked for a bit, then we sat down outside and smoked and drank for a good long while.

While we were sitting there, Emma's dad walked past our table. On a date. So she met this lady and that was interesting to watch. I was able to stay out of it, thank god.

Will came over from Monty's and hung out with us for a bit, I talked to AJ for a while, then we left.

I just found a box of awesome books in my garage and I am pretty excited. I got this book on H. H. Holmes years ago and never read it, thinking I had lost it, but that was in there. I salvaged it and I will read it tomorrow when I am sick of my family. Which will happen pretty quick...

Also, I love Heidi Montag, I think just because she is so much fun to hate, and so is her music. This song, along with all of them is just so damn catchy. I can' stop listening to it....

Day 87 - Ponte Vedra, Kickbacks, 500 Days of Summer

We went out to Ponte Vedra and spent the day laying out by the pool, enjoying some margaritas. And of course getting sun burned. My face is pretty red, but Ashley has the most amazing sunglasses tan ever. It’s not bad at all, and it should fade by tomorrow, but you can see the line.

We met up with Jenn and took Ashley to Kickbacks. Then we went to see 500 Days of Summer in Orange Park. It was so good. Although it was a direct copy of Jenn’s life, so that was kind of weird.

Day 73 - Trickery, Rob, Kevin

I woke up this morning to trickery. My phone rang, waking me up, and I saw it was my dad. "Come over we are making chocolate fondue!" Alright, how am I supposed to pass that one up? I scurried on over there, and then as I am pulling in I see it: Kathleen's car in the driveway. So I was tricked into spending the morning with her. Great.

Rob and I went to the Loop for lunch. Then he got a ca rwash. That's pretty much all we do anymore. It's getting pretty pathetic. We need to actually do something soon.

Tonight I finally saw Harry Potter. Kevin took me to see that, and it was really good. I am sick of everyone saying it was really bad because it didn't follow the book. But really, if he movies were going to follow the books, the movies would be 10 hours long. I really liked it. Afterwards, we went to Dennys and I had delicious french toast. Then we drove out to the beach to walk on the beach for a while. I have never really hung out with Kevin, but it was a lot of fun, and really nice. He is a sweet guy and really easy to talk to. As we were walking, we kept seeing huge black blobs running across the sand, but we couldn't tell what they were. A bit later, we passed a couple walking in the opposite direction, chasing one of the blobs and taking pictures. They were armadillos. WHY were there armadillos at the beach? and in the water? It was crazy. We walked from the plaza, down under neath the pier and well past the pier. I think we walked for about two hours. Then when we were walking back, we lost the car. Of course neither of us payed attention to which street we parked on, so we walked for what felt like another hour before we found his car again. Tonight was a very good adventure.

Day 72 - Ponte Vedra, Corbett, Emma's Birthday

This morning was glorious. Since Granny is feeling better, she treated me, my mom, Marsha, Roise, and Petal to a spa day at Ponte Vedra. Everyone else got manicures and pedicure, but I got a facial since I hate getting my nails done. The spa was gorgeous. I haven't been there since they built the new one. We had a yummy champagne lunch, then everyone went to get their nails done, and I went off for my facial. It was amazing. I haven't gotten a facial in years, and it was amazing. Afterwards I had to wait an hour for everyone else to be done, so I just lounged about the spa, drinking tea and playing Tradewinds.

I came home and met Corbett for dinner at Chickfila. We witnessed the most pathetic date ever while we were there. Two Chickfila employees, sitting in the back corner booth on the same side, all snuggled up together. Seriously? That would be the worst. Grim.

Afterwards we came back to my house and YouTubed and whatnot. Then we called Emma, since it's her birthday, and we hung out with her for a while. We all went to the Casbah where I saw more people I havent seen in years, including AJ Andruszkiewicz. After all these years, I still remember how to spell his last name, and for that I am proud. The whole time we were at the Casbah, Corbett and I were texting back and forth, laughing at every one who was there. Seriously, it was like a Virginia Dell reunion. Emma and I were there, then we saw Justina and Kenny. It was weird.

Day 69 - Beach, Naps, Kickbacks, Steamworks

This morning I woke up quite early, compared to my horrendous sleep schedule lately. Evan picked me up and we headed to the beach. Yet again, it was a very relaxing morning. It felt super empty though. It was a morning of just floating around and talking about music. Although I was hit by a surprise wave and the sunglasses that wear daily were stolen off my face by the ocean. I was very sad. At one point later on we were just laying on the sand and talking. There was a lull in conversation and I looked over and his GameBoy had appeared out of no where, and he was playing Pokemon. That, right there, is why we are friends.

We had lunch at Ponte Vedra, then I headed home and took the longest nap. It was one of those crap naps that when you wake up you are burning up and sweaty and gross. Anyways, I woke up and started to watch Breakfast Club, but I ended up going to Kickbacks with Jenn. Then to Starbucks/Steamworks with Amber. For some reason, tonight was one of those nights where everything hilarious that could be said was said. Yet it could never be understood by anyone else as to why it was so funny.

Walking past Al’s: Me – “I hate walking past the windows at Al’s when there are people sitting here.”
Jenn – “I like it.”
Amber – “I think it’s so-so.”

Then I think the flannel shirt I was wearing tonight impaired my speech. I was talking like a redneck accidentally, then my completely sober speech was slurring so badly I sounded black, even using words such as “fiddy” instead of “fifty.”

Day 66 - Dr. Addo, MovieStop, Casbah, Steamworks

Today Dr. Addo ad his family drove up from West Palm to have lunch with us at Ponte Vedra, which is a tad crazy. I met Dr. Addo's wife and daughters today for the first time. My mom has had his youngest daughter as her Facebook profile picture for the longest time, and I have always thought that was kind of weird. Seeing as she is an African child and whatnot. But then I met these girls and I want to keep them for my own. And if you know me and my feelings towards children, you will know that that is really saying alot. My mom and I actually tried to kidnap Mari, but it didn't work.

This afternoon I pretty much just napped in Ponte Vedra. I wasn't feeling well most of the day. On our way home we took Marsha to the airport. We were on 295 heading towards the airport, and there was construction going on on the opposite side. then out of no where a shovel flew from the other side o the high way and hit the car. It came close to going through a window. It went under neath the car and somehow didn't cause any visible damage, and the car is running just fine. It was terrifying.

Tonight Jenn and I went to MovieStop, and somehow I have never been there before. I bought 8 movies for $22. It was awesome. Also, I decided to wear my Wayferer Readers out in public, and I looked quite ridiculous.

Afterwards we went to the Casbah and sat around there for a while. We got the delicious mango hookah, but nether of us wanted to smoke it. So it pretty much went untouched. We decided to go to Steamworks for a bit, but first we stopped by Adam's new house. Jenn and I hadn't been drinking at all, but the second Adam said, "Isaac is sleeping, so be really quiet," we both felt drunk. We got really giggly and clumsy walking through Adams's house. We ended up waking Isaac up anyways. Adam went to the AP for us and got me a Joose and then we headed to Steamworks. Amber and Haley and some other random people that I have no clue who they are but they follow me on witter were there. Well, more like one person. But I have no clue how she knows me, but there she is, creepin my tweets. Oh well. Steamworks was fun and we ended the night there, sitting outside for the most part.

Came home, had a drunk video chat with Luck, and fell asleep while videochatting. Awesome.

Day 51 - JSO, PVB, Fourth

This morning Jenn and I woke up and went straight to JSO. By this point I had a huge bruise on my neck and one on my arm that is obvious finger marks. We talked to a police officer and he wrote up a report for me. We couldn’t figure out how to spell Asshole’s last name, but eventually we found him. Unsurprisingly, he already has a mug shot. And he is laughing in it. We got the report written up and I have to go this week to file it, if I decide to file it.

We left downtown and came back home and got bathing suits and showers and whatnot then went to Tropical Smoothie for lunch. It was delicious. We went to Ponte Vedra and spent the day floating in the pool with AJ, Drew and Petal. Granny was back at Marsha’s house and it was nice to see her home and well. Finally out of the hospital!

Told my mom about what happened last night, thinking that would be a good idea since I need her help to file the report. She flipped, of course. And basically I am not allowed to see a lot of people anymore. I am alright with that, though. And she gave me a curfew, on Fourth of July. So that sucked. We talked about it and decided in the end that it wouldn’t be a good idea to file the report. Justin Jarrell, Asshole, is crazy. If he has no problem strangling a girl and giving her huge bruises when he is completely sober, I don’t want to know what he would do if I got him arrested. Since it would technically be a minor battery charge, it wouldn’t put him in jail, just ass something to his record. I would rather forget about the whole ordeal and move on.

Tonight Jenn and I went to 5 Points to watch the fireworks. We saw her friend Mike and he hung out with us for the night. Everyone was standing along the river at Memorial Park in front of the statue, then the fireworks started. Way over to the left. Everyone felt pretty stupid that we all were in the wrong spot. The fireworks were cool, but they are always the same. We left there and followed Mike to this party at his friend’s house. It was the coolest house I have ever been to. Apparently one of the guys that lives there’s mom owns an antique store, and the house was full of cool stuff. It was just like Jenn’s room, but in house form.

From there we went to Heather and Ollie’s loft downtown. Heather just got a kitten and it was the cutest thing ever. I usually don’t like cats, but my weekend was full of cats. Last night, Jenn and I spent quite some time chasing Joe’s cat, Titties, around his house. I think I liked that cat so much simply because his name was Titties. Heather’s cat was so tiny and adorable. Jenn and I spent the entire time that we were there playing with those blow toys. I have no idea how to describe it, but there are pictures. Obviously. I dont know why the majority of these are B&W. For some reason it makes me feel like it is New Years Eve.

Day 44 - Ponte Vedra, Inksmith, TSI, Joose Adventure

Today started off amazing. I slept in until 11:30, and when I finally wok up, it was my mom waking me up telling me that she got me French Toast from the Brick. God it was delicious. If I could eat that every meal for the rest of my life, I would be content. Fat, but content. We spent the afternoon in Ponte Vedra at Granny’s house. Her surgery went well, and she is just recovering. We didn’t do much, and just relaxed. I went to Fresh Market and Publix and did some grocery shopping then we made dinner. Granny seems to be doing really well. She didn’t seem tired or anything at all.

When I got home tonight I took a shower and got ready to go to TSI. Jenn picked me up and we began our Adventure of the Evening. We were going to go to Kickbacks for a while since Mike Woods was going to be up there, but we wanted to find someone to get us Joose. We stopped at the 7-11 in Five Points, and tried to see if anyone we knew was in the parking lot. While sitting in the car I heard the most hilarious conversation.

Jenn looked over at the next car, where a girl was sitting with the window down: “Hey, is your name Felicia?”
Felicia: “Yeah….”
Jenn: “Oh we met once at Emily’s house.”
Felicia: “Oh Jenn, right?”
Jenn: “Yeah. What are you doing tonight?”
Felicia: “Going to a five kegger at Cuppy’s house.”
Jenn: “Oh do you know Jmo? She will be there.”
Felicia: “No. Who is she?”
Jenn: “Oh she dates Boots.”
Felicia: “Oh, friends with Titties right?”

What the hell. Do people not have normal names anymore? Cuppy, Jmo, Boots, Titties. From here on out, my name is Unicorn. That fits in much better than “Kate.” Felicia said they don’t card at the gas station, so I sent Jenn in to try her luck. Fail. We went to Kickbacks and sat there for seriously 2 minutes then got bored and left. Then we drove back and went to Inksmith, where Mike Woods was still working. We hung out for a bit and watched Lee finish tattooing this one girl, then Mike bought us our Joose. Hoorah. From there we went to TSI and hung out in the car for a little while. We parked on the side of the road near the river, and we sat and watched everyone walk by. There were some funny looking people. One guy was walking towards the car, and he was waving the whole time. We waved back thinking, “ooohh he’s drunk.” Then he walked right at the car and opened my door. Jenn and I both screamed bloody murder. He just said, “oh” and closed the door. It was scary. But of course two seconds later a homeless man walks past and I rolled down my window to make him come over to the car. He was wearing this awesome shirt, and I told him I liked it. Then he just took it off and said, “Here, it shouldn’t smell too bad” and just gave it to me. We gave him the rest of our drinks and took pictures for a bit then headed towards TSI. We told him to walk with us and right when we got there he flipped. Started making a scene and freaking out because I “stole his short.” Jenn had to run back to her car and get it because both of us were scared that he would just break in and get it. While she was gone he said, “Oh you enjoy that shirt. I am just gonna go home and get another one.” Um? Home? Another shirt? What about him flipping on us? We stood in silence for a minute and he said, out of nowhere, “You know it is true what they say about black men.” And I just pretended not to hear, but then he practically screamed it. I was just like, “Oh really.” And he said, “Yes. It all has to do with SEX!” I had no reaction to that one at all. Jenn came back and dressed him and sent him on his way. We scurried into TSI to get away.





Once we were there, safe and sound, Jenn got a quesadilla. I don’t feel like you should ever get food at a place where everyone is supposed to be drunk. Apparently it wasn’t too delicious. We hung out with Clayto for a bit then went inside. There was no one there at all. The majority of the night was spent outside talking with people or meandering about. All in all, it was a hilarious night. The whole time we were driving home my wine bottle was rolling about underneath my seat and I couldn’t find it. But every so often you could hear CLUMP. CLANK. And for some reason each time Jenn and I just cracked up.



Manly.

Day 37 - Beach, Evan, Wet Hot American Summer Party 09

Today was amazing. One of my favorite days of summer so far. And it is probably going to stay that way. I woke up early, for me on a Saturday and just hung out for a while with my mom and Liam. Then Evan came and picked me up and we went to the beach. I haven’t been able to have a relaxing day at the beach in a really long time, and today was really nice. We just swam and talked and it was really relaxing. It was supposed to be the hottest day of the year today, so I expected the beach to be packed, but it felt empty. It was really weird. The second that we stepped on to the sand, we felt the need to whisper. The waves were crashing silently and it was eerie. We swam for a little while then had lunch at Ponte Vedra then headed home. We didn’t stay too long but it was still nice to have a relaxing morning at the beach.

This afternoon I took two showers because my hair was ridiculously sticky from the ocean. It still felt weird after the second shower. Then I took a nap and just hung out for a while. For most of the afternoon I was under the impression that I was not going to go to Wet Hot American Summer Party at TSI. But around 10:30 I was bored out of my mind and ended up going. Jenn and Johnathan came and picked me up, and then the hilarity ensued. I have not laughed that hard in a long time. The whole night was hilarious. Right when we left my house Jonathan said something like, “I can’t see.” And immediately Jenn and I both yelled, “I cant see I cant breathe I gotta get the candy!” And that just left poor Jonathan very confused. We stopped at a gas station on the way there, and I had my very first Joose experience. I was concerned because 2 of them made Jared blackout and Adam ridiculously drunk. I had already been drinking for a while and expected to just drop dead if I had even one Joose. So Jenn and I split one and that was perfect. We got to TSI and, as usual, sat round the parking lot for awhile and drank. We got out of the car and we took a bunch of pictures then headed into TSI. Right when we got there we saw Jeremy, Clayto, Hunter and Brian. Hunter and Brian were going to sneak into the Yacht Club a little while later and go swimming and we were supposed to go but we never did. I am actually writing this on Sunday from the airport, and I am still piecing together last night. I do remember, very well, at one point last night Jenn and I had been dancing outside, and we went inside to get some water, but she ended up sitting on the ground while I poured my water all over her. I am not sure why, nor do I really care to know. But we thought nothing of it at the time. And I am pretty sure Liam was standing right there and got lots of pictures. Apparently he took over 800 pictures and I can't wait to see them. There are a good amount of Jenn and I.

TSI was decked out. There were life guard chairs, a slip n slide, a pool, and about a hundred pool floaties everywhere. I honestly don’t remember the majority of the night, but the pictures are hilarious. After looking through them with Jenn today we almost peed ourselves. They are hilarious. It was ten times more fun than Black and White ball, and I thought that was as good as it gets. Today was amazing. Beach, Evan, Jenn, TSI. Awesome combination.

Time for a bazillion pictures.





This one was taken by a random Asian woman in the parking lot behind TSI. She was wearing a fanny pack and Jenn tried to buy it from her.





Clayto, Hunter, Brian



Success.





Slip n Slide in the tunnel.



My favorite picture of the whole night:

Day 30 - Colton, Rob, Dad, Ponte Vedra

Today was nice. I slept in until about 10, and woke up planning on doing A Day in My Life since I got my new camera the other day. But that fizzled pretty quickly. Mommy made me my favorite breakfast of Sister Schubert’s rolls, and then I took a shower. I rode my bike over to my dad’s and Colton met me there to mow his lawn. My dad ended up giving Colton more work to do later in the week. Colton and I were supposed to go to the beach today but it rained, of course, s we just hung out in Riverside and at his house. My dad still calls him “Carlton.” I corrected him when Colton was outside, and my dad just said “His parents named him wrong,” then kept calling him Carlton, although he knew it was wrong. It was funny. Colton is hoping to get a job at TCT so today was good all around for him. Afterwards we went back to his house so he could change since it started raining while he was mowing, then we went to see Emma at Smoothie King to grab some free smoothies. We went to Riverside Park and saw some guy on a bike get pegged in the face with a soccer ball. It was hilarious. He flew off his bike and just layed there. Then he stayed at the park, and kept riding around. I would have been so embarrassed and left if that had happened to me.

Colton and I went back to his house and watched TV ad talked to his roommate Reeder then he drove me out to Sawgrass. It was nice hanging out with him again like it was old days again. It was nice. I had dinner at Marsha’s then went out with Rob and his friend James. We went to Biscotti’s and had some cake. I am falling asleep right now really bad so I think I am going to leave this as another really lame entry. No Internet, even though I am at home. I can’t figure out what is wrong with it. And Evan just told me the new Augury CD has leaked and I can’t download it. Not thrilled. Psych time.





I want a wall like this.

Day 16 - Art Market, Outlets, Augusten Burroughs

My mom and I were going to ride our bikes to the art market in Riverside today, but my aunt and grandmother came over to go so we didn’t get a chance to do that today. I went to my dad’s though to get my bike back, and barely spoke to him while I was there. I am still livid with him. I don’t plan speaking to him for a while. But that probably wont work out. Marsha, my mom and I went to the art market, and I was really disappointed. I went once when I was home in March or early April, and it was the second week of the market being open. Then it had a lot of art, and little tents for a bunch of different local galleries. But today it was all food and clothes and regular vendors. There were a couple of cool artists though. There was one I fell in love with. His name was Schallenberg, I think. All his work was really textured and abstract, kind of like a really 3D Pollock.



Afterwards my mom and I went to the outlets to get work clothes. I am not too fond of this people work clothes and I just don’t mix. I don’t have a very feminine style and everything is skirts and blouses and slacks. I hate slacks more than anything. I cant even wear normal jeans. F I can feel fabric flapping around my ankles, even in the slightest, I cant stand it. I have been wearing skinny jeans for far too long to ever go back to normal pants. Also, the people that shop at the outlets are… interesting. You get such a range. While we were in J. Crew everyone was normal, and dressed cute. But then we walk outside and first thing I see is a woman in a huge grey shirt, red, ill fitting sweat pants, and carrying a child haphazardly on one hip and smoking a cigarette. Can we say classy?

Rob met us at Marsha’s house to fix up her internet and then went to dinner at Barbara Jean’s. every time I go there I think, “OK, lets be open about this, maybe I will like it this time.” Nope. I still don’t. The fries are delicious, but I don’t like anything else. The majority of their menu is sea food, and I don’t eat sea food so I am kind of screwed there.

Finally I am getting my iPod to work. It is too small for all of my music, so I have to pick and choose what I want on here. I went through and put everything on it that I would like to listen to driving up and down between Miami and Jacksonville, and it was only about 2,700 songs, which is about a third of my iTunes library. I miss my iPod, and I am excited to have it back.

I am riding my bike to the Fox tomorrow morning for breakfast with my Mom. I may die, for reals. I am so out of shape, which hopefully will change this summer. I haven’t ridden my bike in so long, aside from between my mom’s and dad’s today. And even that was kind of painful. My mom and I watched a bit of Running With Scissors tonight. Earlier we listened to some of an Augusten Burroughs audio book while driving out to St. Augustine and that got me in the mood to watch that movie. I forgot how weird it is, and now I just really want to watch the Royal Tenenbaums. I haven’t seen that in a really long time.

I am falling asleep while typing this and I have to be fairly soon to go to the Fox. Although this is a video from Davey Dance Blog, where he goes to historic locations, picks a song, and dances. The song he used in this video is one of my favorite songs, and it was the finale of the CollegeHumor all nighter this year.

DaveyDanceBlog -64- NYC Union Square from Pheasant Plucker on Vimeo.

I didn't talk to a certain someone at all today. Ugh "/ Going to Miami is bad luck, I swear.

Day 13 - Jason, Rob, Adventures

The weather has been getting a lot better lately. Today I took full advantage and went to the beach with Jason. Watched him surf for a bit and just walked around. This evening was the Village dance recital. I wanted to go, but I stayed back with Liam instead. They did a piece just for Allison in the beginning, which was apparently really sweet.



I love how when I am typing “Sweet” into Word it auto corrects to Sweet Briar College. Jason saw the Sweet Briar sticker on my car today and wouldn’t stop making fun of the name. Granted, it is a sort of silly name for a school. And it sounds so girly. Sweet Briar. Pfft.

I found out today that I don’t have to go to Miami for another week. I am so excited about that. I still haven’t unpacked from school, and I don’t feel like I have had very much time getting everything together to head down there. I am glad I have more time to sort everything out. Tomorrow I am supposed to get some stuff from Tenet to complete, like a drug screening and what not.

Tonight Rob and I went to sonic, like old times, and then just drove around trying to figure out what to do. In what he said was our greatest adventure in the last 2 years, we drove though Riverside and Avondale and ended up at the park at Stockton. We recoded a video from Sonic that perfectly shows our relationship. Some people act differently when they are being recorded, but sadly enough this is exactly how Rob and I are. He hit me enough today to leave some intense bruises I’m predicting. We will find out in the morning.

Day 10 - Ponte Vedra, Pit, Dollhouse

Today was just hilarious. This morning Jenn, my mom and Liam and I went out to Ponte Vedra and just layed out by the pool. I actually got some sun, unfortunately my arms are burned and my nose is a little red. Nothing too exciting happened while we were there, and pretty much all day Jenn and I were trying to figure out what we were going to do tonight. Hardcore Prom was at the Pit and I did not want to go at all. If I was right about the bands that were going to be playing, I would have seen a lot of people who I never want to see again.

I finally decided to go, and we get there and there were so many people there. It was crazy. And of course since Jenn and I haven’t been going to shows for a while, and it was out at the beach, we knew about two people there at first. We eventually went inside and we saw a bunch of our friends there. Jason lives nearby so he came to hang out, and eventually it got to be more fun. I saw a bunch of people who I never care to see again, and although my stomach flipped a few times, it wasn’t nearly as bad as I had expected. The two that I thought would put me in tears were always in my line of vision, and that sucked. One noticed me and tried to get my attention but I just ignored him. I am done dealing with that.

There was some girl who I don’t know that was really nice who had a birthday today. So in celebration of being 18, a bunch of people were taking her to the strip club and Jenn and I ended up going too. It was hilarious. We went to Dollhouse, where Rob and I have always wanted to go. We met a stripper named Renee who was very nice, and very talented. Thanks to Axell for paying for Jenn and I to go.

Tonight I got a call from a friend from school saying that a girl in our year was in a bad accident and she’s not doing too well. So many people have been getting hurt lately I hate it. Keri was in an accident, and it left her with massive internal bleeding and apparently part of her leg had to be amputated. If anyone actually reads this, please pray for her and her family.

Day 9 - Art, TSI

This morning I woke up to my aunt and cousin coming over to wait on UPS. UPS said they would be there between 10 and 11 and nor surprisingly they didn't show. But at like 11:30 there was a knock on the door and surprisingly it was the UPS man. We spent the next few hours hanging art. We got a bunch of original Duaivs and an original Peter Max, which I was basically salivating over. I never thought I would own a Peter Max. He is easily the most famous living artist, and when he dies he is going to be as famous as Warhol. The house looks amazing with all of the new art. There were these terrible pictures of me in the bathroom in a bathing suit from when I was 15 and those got replaced. Thank god. Marsha loaded up her car with a bunch more pieces, some Duaivs and an original copy of a Rembrandt sketch. It's so amazing.

This afternoon all I did was sleep. I got no sleep last night and this morning I was up far too early for my liking. This evening my mom, Liam, Jenn and I all came out to Ponte Vedra to have dinner. My aunt made all of my favorites. It was delicious. Jenn and I left Ponte Vedra and came back to my house and got changed and went out. Justin was having a party at his house and Jarrett told me to go out there. Last time I was at Justin’s was over thanksgiving break. It was easily the nest night of my thanksgiving break. It was just me, Jarrett, Perry, and Justin and some other guy, and they were all so wasted and stoned. Perry was so stoned he was asleep on the couch the whole time I was there and I couldn't wake him up. So tonight there were a few more guys there, including Trevor who I see almost every time I go to the mall. Jenn be I realized that we have never played beer pong together and we fixed that. Last time I was there Jarrett made me play even though I told him that I am easily the worst beer pong player in the world, and he made me play again last night. Right before we played and during my heart started freaking out. My heart has been fine once last summer and having it randomly race like it did tonight really scared me. It was worse than it was last summer, and I could barely breathe. I don't know why that was happening. I barely drink any caffeine now and there was mo reason for it to do that. It was scary.

After we left Justin’s we went to TSI. Jenn ad I were driving around downtown trying to find a parking spot to go to VyStar, and the whole time I was about to pee myself. We finally got to TSI and Jenn was changing her clothes so I peed in the corner of the parking lot. I can't remember the last time I did that, but tonight I was pretty proud of myself for some really odd reason.

Anyways. TSI was fun. We danced and hung out and there weren't very many people there. My heart kept racing the whole night and it was hard to ignore. We were sittng by the pool tables towards the end of the night and this guy asked to play with him. He was so drunk it was hilarious. He didn't understand that you have to put money into the pool table to get the balls out. We finally started to play and that's when the creepy began. While either Jenn or I was playing our turn, he would get behind either of us that were still standing there and rub our backs and just scoot towards us when we moved away. When he talked he got so close our noses touched and I had nowhere to back up. When we were dome playing he asked me "so you want my number or what?" haha ew. Jenn came over and we just laughed at him. We decided to go dance and left him then all of the sudden he was creeping right behind us. It was funny yet creepy.

My heart still has me worried. If it happens again I will have to go back to the hospital. Which is not something I want to do. Obviously.

Tomorrow Jenn and I are going back out to Ponte Vedra to lay out by the pool and have a cook out. I didn't update my Daily Booth today either. I can't slack this early in the summer

Day 3 - PVB, Rob, Jason, Emma

I am going to refer to today as "The Day of the Massive Stomach Ache." All day I was thinking about last night and everything that happened, and feeling terrible. I did not talk to Jenn at all, even though I wanted to text her so bad. I feel like that would just make things worse.

This morning I woke up to my Mom making me pancakes, which was wonderful. We went out to Ponte Vedra with Liam for the day, and met up with my grandmother and my cousin Patrick at my aunt's house. We pretty much just sat around and talked, and I had a really long talk with Granny Franny about Sweet Briar. I have decided (more like accepted) that I am miserable there. I realized today when I was talking to Granny about it, that it is a good fit academically, just not socially. I am not going to transfer, but I have been thinking a lot more about graduate school. Working at the hospital this summer will be good, because if it turns out to be something I enjoy, it would be a field I could easily go into right out of school. I want/need to get an MBA, although I will get my Masters and Doctorate in Art History before I am 50. That is my ultimate goal in life. How cool would it be to have a doctorate in Contemporary Art? That is what I would love to do. I love my grandmother so much, and talking to her makes me realize things and sort my thoughts.

We went to the Town Center for lunch and shopping. At Barnes and Noble I got my favorite magazines ever, as well as a new one called FOUND that I uh.... found. I haven’t really looked at it yet but it looks pretty cool. I will be up all night tonight reading that, Artforum, and Art on Paper.

For my birthday my mom got me a gift card to get a new iPhone since mine is a piece of crap and falling apart. Although when I went in my friends there told me to wait a while before I get a new one since there may be a new phone coming out this summer. So me and my good friend Cherry Darling will be sticking together for a bit longer. I guess that’s good, because I still hadn’t thought of a new name for my new phone. My phone now is Cherry Darling (Planet Terror), my Kindle is Dr. Dakota Block (also Planet Terror) and my iPod is Frankenstein. So I will think about that for a while.

I spent some time with Rob tonight, and it was different than it has been for a while. I think a lot about my senior year and how Rob and I spent every moment together, and I really miss that. And tonight it didn't feel forced like it does sometimes. We about peed ourselves when lightning hit right by his house right before we were going to go to the Loop for dinner. (I just realized I left my cup in my car and I am really thirsty....) I got my food and as always, the first thing he did was take a huge bite out of one of my chicken fingers. Although this time it scalded his mouth and the chicken along with a line of slobber fell from his mouth. Just as it happened a women walked in the door and watched the whole thing happen. She just shook her head and laughed, which made the whole situation about a thousand times funnier. After dinner our first thought was "Krispy Kreme," of course. We then discovered the hot sign is on until 10 now, which was thrilling.

After I left Rob's I went to the beach and hung out with Jason for a little bit. It was rainy and gross and the only thing we could figure out to do was to walk on the beach for a while. I felt bad because he has a broken toe and the sand was wet and hard to walk on, but he was a good sport about it. I wasn’t out there very long, and I was driving back home I realized that I hadn’t seen Emma yet, so I called her and met her at the Casbah with two of her friends. That sentence was unnecessarily long. I was there with her for about an hour and I think I am going to do something with her tomorrow.

In the last few days, I have realized something really odd about myself. I guess I realized it a long time ago, but it has been confirmed. I am an observer. In any given situation, I would much rather observe than partake. Like the other night at TSI, I would rather people watch than dance or socialize. I think this is the main thing that makes me so socially awkward. I am fine with that though. It may be part of my creative and artsy side that makes me do it, because I like to image these people’s lives and what they will do when they go home. I wish I could be invisible. I would go out so much and just watch people, never partaking in any of the activities, just observe. I don’t feel like this is creepy in the least bit, because I am not staring and watching, just observing and noting things. Alright that is even creepier.

Overall I had a decent day, but I had this nagging stomach ache all day, thinking about last night. No matter what I was doing, or how hard I was laughing at Rob in pain, I could not get last night out of my head. I have to fix this. I have a phone conference tomorrow morning at 9:30 (I feel so grown up) so I am going to get to sleep. No plans other than that tomorrow for the most part.