Domestic?

I have been feeling quite domestic lately. I said this to Corbett earlier and he just laughed at me. My mom is out of town for teacher conferences and has left me in charge to man the fort. It is only 3:10 today and already I have taken Liam to school, had my car serviced (hoorah for operational windshield wipers), and picked up Emily from Episcopal. I am sitting at her orthodontist office waiting for her right now and people watching.

In the next few days I will be packing lunches, carpooling, watching basketball practices, cleaning, doing dishes and leading sleepovers. This will be entertaining. My mom thinks that Liam and I hate each other, but we are actually quite civil when left alone. Whenever I watch him or we do something together we get along great and we actually have interesting conversations. Well, as interesting as it can be with a nine year old. On the other hand, when we are with my mom we bicker and argue, leading our mother to believe we hate each other. I think that in actuality it's just a problem of age difference. I was raised as an only child and even after nine years I have not been able to adjust to sharing my mother. And he is basically an only child eight months out of the year, which leads to us competing for attention when I am home. It makes me feel like I am also nine years old, but it is not intentional. It's just how we are.

So the next few days should be fun, spending a good amount of time with Liam. I am saying this after only 8 hours of being temporary head of the house. We will see how I feel on Saturday.

Thursday, November 26 - Thanksgiving, Pearl

This morning Liam and I woke up early and went to go pick up our mom from Mandarin, where she ran a half marathon with Traci and Josie. We didn't get to watch her finish, but it was packed. I wouldn't think there would be so many people willing to wake up at the crack of dawn on Thanksgiving to run 13 miles.

we went over to Marsha's house and spent the day cooking and entertaining. Met some family members I didn't know about as well. One was named Lenny, and he reminded me of Lennie from Of Mice and Men. I won him over by showing him how to proberly open a handle of scotch.

After we ate I went to lay down for a few minutes, and woke up about 4 hours later and everyone was gone. Eeeh.

Corbett and AJ and I went to the Pearl tonight. I have never gone without Jenn, and it was weird but nice to just go with a bunch of guys. It was more laid back and I was able to just hang out and people watch. Going to an all girls school I have forgotten how nice it is to just be with guys. There were a bunch of random people there, including Jaclynn (joy).

After we left the Pearl we went to WaHo for some late night/early morning hashbrowns. That was possible the high light of my Thanksgiving, food-wise. We dropped off AJ then went to Target to scope out the Black Friday lines. It was about 3 and already there were a bunch of people sitting outside.

Sunday, November 23 - Jags Game, BTBAM

So after I got home from Rob's this morning I showered and napped then went to the Jaguar game. It was a horrible game and we left pretty early. They ended up winning and Liam pretty much hated us for leaving early. When it was his idea...

Evan and I went to Between the Buried and Me tonight. And oh my god saw the best band ever. We saw Wings of Victory, Veil of Maya, Animals as Leaders, and BTBAM. Wing of Victory sucked, as I expected. Veil of Maya was amazing. BTBAM was good, but not as amazing as I had expected. I most likely would have been blown away if I not just seen Animals as Leaders. Combined, Evan and I have a pretty thorough knowledge of metal bands, but neither of us had heard of them. After they played, we just turned to each other and both of us had the biggest smile plastered on our faces. They were amazing. No vocalist, and it was all technical and melodic. We bought the CD immediately. Even people that don;t like metal will like them, which I know covers the majority of the people that read this.



After the show we came back to my house and I put the CD on my computer. It was the first time Evan has ever been inside my house, and it was funny when he got in my room and just stood there looking at stuff. I guess it's been a while since I had someone new in my room and it was funny to watch him just look around. It also made me look at my room with new eyes, and also made me realize that I really have to paint my room a new color. This green or horrid.

Off to bed, just posted a video on KateListensToDavid. So. Yeah.

Day 95 - Liam, Corbett

Today was my second to last day at home. I babysat Liam all day, and we had a lot of fun. We went to Chamblins to take in some books, and then we met up with Corbett for lunch at Chickfila. Yum. Liam and I went to Jungle Quest this afternoon, and that was so much fun. I have never been there but he goes a lot. It is mainly for kids so I was given funny looks. I didn’t care. I had so much fun hanging out with Liam. We went rock climbing and zip lining and whatnot. There was this little boy who was rock climbing with us, and I fell in love. His name was Alex and he is 6. He would race Liam and I to the top of the rock wall and even did it blindfolded with us. He was so cute. I wanted to tell hi parents I would be willing to babysit anytime but he disappeared while I was blindfolded at the rock wall. And that is saying a lot, coming from me. I hate children. But he was one of the most adorable things ever.

I spent the rest of the day packing. The End.

Day 79 - Chamblins, Town Center, Kickbacks

This morning I got a hair cut. The End.

Then after being incapacitated by the worst back pain known to man for a few hours, I went to Chamblins. I love going there. I sat in the art history section for almost two hours, reading the I Ching. Perfection.

I met up with my mom, Liam, Granny and Marsha at the town center and we went to dinner at Mitchells. I went back to Urban and I may or may not have bought even more clothing. Hint: I did.

I went to Kickbacks tonight with Emma, Corbett and John. I have hung out with John only a few times but tonight I finally felt like he was opening up a bit, and I am glad that he was. Emma was always saying hes a really funny guy... but I just didn't see it.

We hung out there for a few hours then I came home and kept reading.

Day 78 - Kennedy Space Center

Today my mom and Liam and I took a day trip to go to Kennedy Space Center. That was exciting, actually. I dont think I have been there since elementary school. There was a rocket garden, with all of these ginormous rockets that were blasted into space, and we got to meet some astronauts and go on a flight simulation ride. Overall it was a very good day.

I watched Knowing tonight and it was amazing. Kind of. Okay not really. Some bits were really good but the ending was the dumbest thing ever.

Day 75 - Loop x2, Emma, IanBrannon, Milby

I babysat Liam all day again today. Awesome.... We met up with Ian and Brannon at the Loop for lunch. I haven't seen them in a long time, especially Brannon. Ever since she left for school in England she has rarely been home. That was nice to catch up with them and spend time together like we used to.

Liam and I hung out this afternoon, and we did a lot of cleaning. After everything I did today my room looks so different. I took down all of the Happening stuff I had on my walls, and everything on the back of my door. My room still looks like it belongs to a gender confused 10 year old, but I am working on that.

This evening my mom, Liam and I went over to Christy Milby's house for dinner. I have barely seen her since she and Brian moved from Churchwell years and years ago. Now she has teo adorable children. Skylar is 5 I suppose, and Hayden is about 3. Hayden is one of the most adorable children I have ever encountered. Along with Mary, I am going to steal them. He helped me make waffles, and I tried to teach him how to juggle. We had a delicious dinner of homemade waffles, bacon, and fruit. That is my third night in a row having breakfast for dinner. I am alright with this.

Tonight I went with Emma to the Loop and just sat with her while she ate. Then we came back to my house and sat around. Well, she sat around and I kept cleaning. My room is crazy different....

Colton's Words of Wisdom of the day: "Well Kate, you see sometimes you just have to push through that sleepiness so that you can hang out and have an awesome time."

Day 74 - Emma, Liam, Corbett, Bayside, Mikey

Today was a busy day, although it didn't feel like it. I woke this morning and worked on cleaning my room for a while, then Emma came and took Liam and I to lunch at Al's. Although when we were walking into Al's, Liam said, "I wonder if Mommy is here yet?" Then I had to tell him that Mommy wasn't meeting us up there, which I never said in the first place, and he lost it. Of course. 9 years old and cried like crazy because Mommy wasnt going to come have lunch with us. It was embarrassing. But Emma made it better because she said she would go across the street to Smoothie King and make him a free smoothie after lunch. That worked.

After lunch I came home, took a shower, and waited for my mom to come back from work. When she got back I drove out to the beach to see the acoustic Bayside show outside at Aqua East. I have never really listened to Bayside, but Corbett was pestering me to go, so I did. It was beautiful weather, and just a bit rainy. There were a lot of people there, and it was a good show. I saw Kevin and a bunch of other people. I was glad I went, even though I wasn't thrilled originally.

I went from Aqua East to Fugi Sushi, and pretty much just sat there for almost two hours with my mom, Liam, Mrs. Haramis and a bunch of other people I really didn't know, all the while starving to death. Then finally it was time for my dinner. I went and picked up Mikey and we went to Dennys. Seriously, I have had Dennys 2 days in a row. I am going to drop dead. Never eating there again. We sat across from the largest woman I have ever seen, and not only did she look like a while, but she was making whale sound effects. It was hilarious.

And now I am home and in bed. Tomorrow I am babysitting Liam again, going to the pool and lunch with Ian. Hoorah.

Day 71 - St. Augustine

This morning I woke up far too early after going to the Pearl, and my mom and Liam and I went to St. Augustine. We went to Ripley's first, but I went there last summer. Corbett said it best: "Yeah that's a place you can only handle once a decade." I agree. I hate it there, especially since once you walk in, and you go to read the very first placard, there are so many typos. It frustrates me. Thank god Liam can be a little wuss sometimes, since we only made it half way through Ripley's when he got spooked and we had to just walk through the rest of it. Score.

From there we went to the Lightner museum. At first I thought it would be a fun place to bring Ashley when she comes down to visit, but I don't thank I am going to take her there, since that involves me having to go back. It was terribly boring. From there we had lunch at the Columbia, and got some delicious Kilwins sorbet. We tried to get over to the lighthouse before it closed, but by the time we got there the weather was too bad and they had shut it down. So no lighthouse today.

I got home and took another terrible nap, then Jenn and I went to get dinner. Of course our first choice was Kickbacks, but it was 10:00 on a Friday night and it was ridiculous. When we walked in we saw Rob and Clay, but didn't talk to them and tried to find a table. No such luck. So we ended up at Sonic, listening to the Grease Soundtrack, and me wearing my Mitchell Davis glasses. Seriously, I cannot take them off. Especially in public. I look so stupid, but that's the best part. Jenn leaves tomorrow for Colorado. Bestfriendless until the first. Ugh.

Day 70 - Babysit, Pearl

Today was a lazy, but very good day. I woke up around noon and just meandered about the house. I rented Breakfast Club a while back and I just got around to watching it this morning. Then I worked on the pile of terrible movies I bought last week. So pretty much all day I cleaned, babysat Liam, and watched Breakfast Club, Perfect Score, and My Boss’s Daughter.

And, being a Thursday, Jenn and I went to the Pearl. We met up with Josh who bought us Joose, but the AP was out of Red, so he got me orange. Honestly, the orange tasted like the smell of our laundry room the time Liam played outside in the rain with shoes and socks on, then the socks mildewed at the bottom of the laundry hamper without anyone noticing. I was gagging trying to drink it. I have never noticed before, but apparently Joose is an energy drink, so technically I shouldn’t be drinking it because of my heart. And Josh knows this so each time he gets it for me he gives me a little talk about being careful. “Ok thanks Dad.”

Jenn and I have hilarious arguments that emphasize how reckless we are. “I thought you were going to open it for me!” “We are at a red light do it yourself!!”

When we got to the Pearl we just drove around for a bit, and we found a building on fire, and that was exciting. Although immediately afterwards both of us wanted barbeque… Went inside the Pearl, and the first person I saw was Jason Wagner. Awesome. We just stopped talking a few months ago and that was kind of awkward. Right away we went out back and Josh came up to us holding a PBR. Except Josh is 19, with big black X’s on his hands. We were in the middle of telling him to put it down, when he got kicked out. Bye, Josh. There were so many random people at the Pearl tonight. I saw Andrew Harper, who I haven’t seen in a long time. And Kevin. “Oh my god Kate! I haven’t seen you in like 6 years! Are you single?!” Oh my. Haha.

Otherwise it was a very fun, but uneventful night.

Day 45 - Stressful Errand Day

This morning I woke up and went to lunch with Rob. Eh. Yes. Woke up then lunch. I went to his and Clay’s new apartment building in Riverside for the first time. I parked and got out of the car and looked up, and MC was creeping from above. We yelled back and forth for a minute, although I had no idea what he was saying. I can’t understand him even when he is standing right next to me. Too Asian. Rob and Clay’s new place is really nice. I had never been in those building before but I really liked it. I know a few other people that live over there. We went to the Loop for lunch, then his old house where I had a package waiting, because I am dumb and shipped it there instead of my own house. I don’t know how that happened.

This afternoon was ridiculously stressful. Granny had to go to the ER since she has a fever and whatnot and I went to get Liam so he wouldn’t have to stay there. We came home and I put together my new camera and then went to Best Buy to pick up Jenn. Then we went to Jiffy Lube so that I could get my oil changed. That took forever and it was gross there. Jenn was crazy today. Running on only 4 hours of sleep and excitement on top of that. Omg. Hyper. We went to Crispers for lunch then to Target so that I could get film and a case for my new camera then to GameStop. That was an experience. Apparently Jenn has never played a GameBoy in her entire life. So she stood there playing GameBoy and Liam tried to pick out games to exchange. This was at 4:30ish, and I still had to drive back to Fort Lauderdale. I was not pleased. By the time we finally left I had to scurry home and get packed and leave. I did not want t leave. I am exhausted and I don’t want to face another week of work. Thank god I am half way through though.

Day 38 - Father's Day, Imokalee

Fathers Day. Liam and I took Daddy to the Brick this morning and that was nothing different then normal time with Daddy. Today Liam went to camp for the very first time. We went with the Whelan’s to Camp Immokalee to drop them off. It was cute and they were both so excited. The camp is located waaay out on Blanding, past Orange Park and in the middle of nowhere. There are about 16 kids in their cabin and no AC. Basically they will die.





I am back in Fort Lauderdale now. Not excited for a week of work.

Day 31 - Mom, Liam, Loop, MOSH, I Love Jacksonville

Today was a very good day I slept in, then Mommy, Liam and I went to the Loop for lunch and MOSH. I haven’t been to MOSH in years, I think one of the last time I was there was my first date with James Poindexter in 9th grade. There were the same exhibits, like the whales and the Living Room, JEA, and the Dino skeleton, this time the main exhibit was one I remember seeing a few years back when I was babysitting Carlton and Colter. Okay well maybe that was one of the last times I went, not in 9th grade. Whatever. It was all animatronic dinosaurs, and the planetarium show was the history of the dinosaurs. After we left MOSH we walked around Friendship Fountain, and it was breathtaking. It was such a pretty day. Then I went to the Treaty Oak, which somehow I have never seen before.









I don't know why those are sort of blurry.

Now I am in the airport in Jacksonville, getting ready to fly back to Fort Lauderdale for another wonderful week of work. Whoo.

Day 20 - Liam, Art Walk, Casbah

This morning, pretty much right after I woke up, I took Camp and Liam to see UP. I have heard from so many people that it is so amazing, yet sad. I was in tears after the first 10 minutes. It was so sad. But overall, it was an adorable movie. Like other Pixar movies, they had a short movie before hand, and the one this time was so adorable. I would like to have a Kevin of my own.

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When we were leaving the theater, it was raining, and I realized that Liam and Camp are the two slowest people to ever walk the earth. All day long I was saying over and over “Come on guys walk faster!” They never listened. Then I had to get them ready to take them to Rover Rats, and it took Liam about a half our to put on his bathing suit. It was ridiculous. Today was, thank goodness, my last day of babysitting.

Tonight Jenn and I went to Art Walk, which was a huge let down. There really wasn’t very much going on. So we left and went to the Casbah. We ran into Damon, Mark’s friend, and a bunch of his friends there and sat with them. Corbett was there as well, and we had an awkward Tweet War from 3 feet away, which had us cracking up, and the people we were with very confused. Oh well. One of the guys we sat with tonight works for Chacha, which is this company that pretty much just answers questions. You text in your questions and bam, you get an answer. The first thing I asked was “Who is Kate Gorman from Jacksonville, FL?” and they replied with my dad’s home address. It was creepy. Then I decided to be a jerk and asked “What is the hokey pokey really is what it is all about?” And the reply said “Then we live sad, sad, sad lives.” So ChaCha is my new favorite thing.

Tomorrow will be a very good day. I am excited to get out and stay busy throughout the course of the day, since I haven’t done that in a while. I am waking up tomorrow and going to School Four with Mikey to take picture. It may be demolished soon and we want to go. Its funny because we bonded over our common unhealthy love of School Four, yet we have never been together. I am excited about that. Then later I am going swimming with Colton, which will be entertaining with this miserable sunburn I have. I am going to try to run over to the town center at some point to get some work clothes shopping done, but I am not sure if that will work. Then later I am hanging out with Evan, a guy I met at the party last night. So I am thinking that tomorrow will be a good day.

Day 19 - Babysitting, Bikes, Rooftop Party

Today was another Liam and Kate day. I took Liam and Camp to the pool and let them go off on their own for a bit. I was able to enjoy some time to myself, read some Augusten Burroughs, and drown out the terrible Timiquana music with Ghostland Observatory and With Faith or Flames. Julia was up there and we hung out of a little bit. She is going to be a debutante this summer, so that is exciting. I also encountered some of the rudest girls ever today. That is nothing new for Timiquana, but these girls today were a different breed. One soaked my book my shaking her hair off and when I said something, she just looked at me, laid down, and closed her eyes. Bitch. Liam and Camp had been swimming for a long time, and I kept telling Liam to tell me when they were getting lunch since I was starving, and finally I was just going to go order ahead of them, our number gets called. Turns out Liam completely ignored me and went ahead and ordered his lunch. No surprise. So I just planned on getting my lunch then leaving. I waited for about 30 minutes for my lunch until I decided to just leave. I stopped to see if it was just sitting there, but turns out someone just came in and took it. Jerks. So I had to wait for the woman to make me a whole new order. I hate the people at Timiquana sometimes.

This afternoon was pretty boring, didn’t do much of anything. Jenn and I went on a bike ride this evening, and that was nice. It gave us time to just talk and not have our phones buzzing every 30 seconds. We need to do that more often.

Later we went to Kickbacks for dinner then to a birthday party for one of the guys that she works with. On the way to the party we stopped at Walgreens to get some jellybeans, and there was this woman checking put in front of us with the worst hair I have ever seen. She was leaving and the cashier handed her a bag stuffed with candy and said, “Oh wait. Here’s your candy.” Then handed her some beach toys and said “and your toys.” And Jenn and I thought it was the funniest thing ever. Typing this now, I have no idea why, but at the time, it was hilarious. From there we headed to the party. It was on the roof of the new lofts in 5 Pts and it had an amazing view. I felt mega lame at the party since a good amount of the kids that were there were just graduating high school. I met some cool people, and saw some random people from high school. Eric Branholm and David Meyers were both there. When I first got there I thought I recognized David but decided it probably wasn’t him, but turns out it was. It was funny seeing him and Eric there, and it was nice to catch up. I sound so queer for saying that, but its true. At one point last night I went downstairs to use the restroom, but turns out two of the people from the party were having sex in the only bathroom that was available. David and I both got a good laugh out of that one and listened in for a while. They were there for a while so I had to pee on the roof. Great fun. Tonight was really good. Just hung out, talked, drank. It was nice to do that instead of TSI or the Pearl, where you cant really talk and people are swarming. It was a nice change of pace.

Tomorrow is another day of Liam and Camp. Can’t wait… Oh and I have the most hilarious sunburn from today. One side of my body is a tomato, the other is white as a sheet.

This is my life. I am such a pushover.

Day 18 - Liam, Laid back

Liam and I spent the day together. Kind of. Mom had to work so Liam and I hung out, played Uno, and went to the Orthodontist. His front two teeth are both growing completely crooked, so we expected his orthodontia to be super expensive to get it all fixed. The orthodontist said it would only cost $160 total, and that would be for the wire alone. The front brackets will be free, since that is all he needs. Apparently once they get his front teeth straightened out, they wont need to do anymore after that. So I am excited about that.

Jenn and I watched Taken today also. It was so good. Neither of us really like action movies, but this one was amazing. We went to Panera and I got my yummy sandwich and my day was complete. After Jen left I was feeling oddly domestic. I did the dishes and cleaned, drank too much wine then just walked around the house finding little tings to fix up or clean. It was fun, in a really weird way.

Today was obviously just laid back and I didn’t really do much. I am falling asleep now, and it is still early for me. Tomorrow I am babysitting Liam and Camp again and I think I am taking them to the pool. I am getting somewhat of a tan, which is a big deal for me.

Oh and I got my IRS return today. Made my day.

I feel like my first week home was amazing and action packed and now my days and getting more and more laid back. That is a good thing though. I am exhausted.

Day 6 - Denise, Kickbacks, Rain

Today marked day four of the never ending rain. I checked Weather Channel and it is supposed to rain through the 29th. It was fun at first, but now the roads are basically just huge puddles and I do not appreciate that.

Last night I went to sleep with my window open, listening to the rain. I was out so fast, and I loved it. I woke up this morning at 8, to the rain, and my stomach was eating itself. So finally around 9:30 Jenn and I met for breakfast. I came home, got back in bed, and started to read, although I fell asleep again and didn’t wake up until about 3. Liam has been having trouble lately with school and our dad and whatnot, so he went to Denise today just to talk. I don’t really want to get into all of that here, but it was helpful. Afterwards we went to the Brick for dinner, and then I came home and went right out to dinner number 2 with Rob to Sake House. I have been spending more time with him lately and I am glad about that. It is far more frequent than other times I have been home. He gave me my birthday presents tonight, which I love. He got be an awesome flannel, which is light enough to wear in the summer, and a photo hanging thing, which he said is to only have pictures of him. Selfish Rob. Haha. The best thing by far was a new Book. Senior year we had little notebooks that we would write in and throw to each other during class, and in our lockers and for some reason we thought it was the best thing ever. So now we have a new book, and I cant wait to get started with that again.


Book and shirt.

Tonight also marked night 3 of going to Kickbacks. This time we actually ate, and I had some amazing potatoes and pasta, and Jenn said that her omelet was the best thing she had ever eaten. So I think that is a winner on the food aspect, along with social. Hoorah! In the back of their menu they have the “Vintage” section, which has things like Ramen noodles, Spaghetti-O’s, Hamburger Helper, Fluffernutter sandwiches, and a bunch more. That’s adorable ad hilarious. Even better, they have the Hamburger Helper du jour. I didn’t really do much today but it was relaxing. Tomorrow I have to get my camera fixed, since as of today it no longer opens. And I am taking Emily to the mall. In the rain. FML.

I am going to go to bed, reading with the window open yet again. This morning Jenn had big news, and she said her whole story, I commented, then presented my big news: "I slept with my window open last night." FAIL.

Last thing, Rob and I were Facebooking back and forth today with Texts From Last Night, and I accidentally posted one as my status that made me look terrible. Immediately I got texts and status comments from some creepers. It was an awesome five minutes until I realized that facebook and I were obviously not getting along. Then I cleared it but forget to delete it from my news feed, so it was still there. It was hilarious, but not the best as a status.

Facebooked TFLN:
(931): Also, i'm pretty sure i've had my birth control pill stuck in my throat since like...two pm. So i'll be practicing safe oral sex tonight.

FAIL
Also, I am still going back and watching a lot of Mitchell Davis' videos. I love this one so much.

Day 3 - PVB, Rob, Jason, Emma

I am going to refer to today as "The Day of the Massive Stomach Ache." All day I was thinking about last night and everything that happened, and feeling terrible. I did not talk to Jenn at all, even though I wanted to text her so bad. I feel like that would just make things worse.

This morning I woke up to my Mom making me pancakes, which was wonderful. We went out to Ponte Vedra with Liam for the day, and met up with my grandmother and my cousin Patrick at my aunt's house. We pretty much just sat around and talked, and I had a really long talk with Granny Franny about Sweet Briar. I have decided (more like accepted) that I am miserable there. I realized today when I was talking to Granny about it, that it is a good fit academically, just not socially. I am not going to transfer, but I have been thinking a lot more about graduate school. Working at the hospital this summer will be good, because if it turns out to be something I enjoy, it would be a field I could easily go into right out of school. I want/need to get an MBA, although I will get my Masters and Doctorate in Art History before I am 50. That is my ultimate goal in life. How cool would it be to have a doctorate in Contemporary Art? That is what I would love to do. I love my grandmother so much, and talking to her makes me realize things and sort my thoughts.

We went to the Town Center for lunch and shopping. At Barnes and Noble I got my favorite magazines ever, as well as a new one called FOUND that I uh.... found. I haven’t really looked at it yet but it looks pretty cool. I will be up all night tonight reading that, Artforum, and Art on Paper.

For my birthday my mom got me a gift card to get a new iPhone since mine is a piece of crap and falling apart. Although when I went in my friends there told me to wait a while before I get a new one since there may be a new phone coming out this summer. So me and my good friend Cherry Darling will be sticking together for a bit longer. I guess that’s good, because I still hadn’t thought of a new name for my new phone. My phone now is Cherry Darling (Planet Terror), my Kindle is Dr. Dakota Block (also Planet Terror) and my iPod is Frankenstein. So I will think about that for a while.

I spent some time with Rob tonight, and it was different than it has been for a while. I think a lot about my senior year and how Rob and I spent every moment together, and I really miss that. And tonight it didn't feel forced like it does sometimes. We about peed ourselves when lightning hit right by his house right before we were going to go to the Loop for dinner. (I just realized I left my cup in my car and I am really thirsty....) I got my food and as always, the first thing he did was take a huge bite out of one of my chicken fingers. Although this time it scalded his mouth and the chicken along with a line of slobber fell from his mouth. Just as it happened a women walked in the door and watched the whole thing happen. She just shook her head and laughed, which made the whole situation about a thousand times funnier. After dinner our first thought was "Krispy Kreme," of course. We then discovered the hot sign is on until 10 now, which was thrilling.

After I left Rob's I went to the beach and hung out with Jason for a little bit. It was rainy and gross and the only thing we could figure out to do was to walk on the beach for a while. I felt bad because he has a broken toe and the sand was wet and hard to walk on, but he was a good sport about it. I wasn’t out there very long, and I was driving back home I realized that I hadn’t seen Emma yet, so I called her and met her at the Casbah with two of her friends. That sentence was unnecessarily long. I was there with her for about an hour and I think I am going to do something with her tomorrow.

In the last few days, I have realized something really odd about myself. I guess I realized it a long time ago, but it has been confirmed. I am an observer. In any given situation, I would much rather observe than partake. Like the other night at TSI, I would rather people watch than dance or socialize. I think this is the main thing that makes me so socially awkward. I am fine with that though. It may be part of my creative and artsy side that makes me do it, because I like to image these people’s lives and what they will do when they go home. I wish I could be invisible. I would go out so much and just watch people, never partaking in any of the activities, just observe. I don’t feel like this is creepy in the least bit, because I am not staring and watching, just observing and noting things. Alright that is even creepier.

Overall I had a decent day, but I had this nagging stomach ache all day, thinking about last night. No matter what I was doing, or how hard I was laughing at Rob in pain, I could not get last night out of my head. I have to fix this. I have a phone conference tomorrow morning at 9:30 (I feel so grown up) so I am going to get to sleep. No plans other than that tomorrow for the most part.