Day 8 - UPS, Steamworks, Three Wolf Moon Shirt

When my mom and aunt went on the Disney cruise in March, they bought a bunch of art from one of the auctions. There was an original Peter Max included, which I would kill for. UPS has been being super difficult about getting it all to us, constantly saying that they came and no one was here to sign for it, although they kept coming by when no one is home, and we told them when we would be home and what not. Finally, they said that they would definitely bring it by today. So I had to get u this morning at 8 and sit around all day waiting for them to deliver everything. I couldn’t shower or go back to sleep since I knew that if I did, they would come in those few minutes. So basically I did nothing toady. And did UPS ever come? Of course not. My aunt and Patrick and Granny Franny all came over later and we got dinner and continued to wait for UPS. After a bunch of phone calls, UPS promised that they would deliver the art between 10 and noon tomorrow. And I will be up and waiting for it then.

Tonight Jenn and I went to Steamworks. It was kind of boring and it ended up back firing on us. Jenn saw someone she didn’t want to see, and we left. I don’t really want to get into all of that here though. We are now sitting at my house, eating brownies and watching Twilight.

I made a magical discovery tonight. The Three Wolf Moon T-Shirt on Amazon. The comments are completely hilarious. Best one:

"This item has wolves on it which makes it intrinsically sweet and worth 5 stars by itself, but once I tried it on, that's when the magic happened. After checking to ensure that the shirt would properly cover my girth, I walked from my trailer to Wal-mart with the shirt on and was immediately approached by women. The women knew from the wolves on my shirt that I, like a wolf, am a mysterious loner who knows how to 'howl at the moon' from time to time (if you catch my drift!). The women that approached me wanted to know if I would be their boyfriend and/or give them money for something they called meth. I told them no, because they didn't have enough teeth, and frankly a man with a wolf-shirt shouldn't settle for the first thing that comes to him. I arrived at Wal-mart, mounted my courtesy-scooter (walking is such a drag!) sitting side saddle so that my wolves would show. While I was browsing tube socks, I could hear aroused asthmatic breathing behind me. I turned around to see a slightly sweaty dream in sweatpants and flip-flops standing there. She told me she liked the wolves on my shirt, I told her I wanted to howl at her moon. She offered me a swig from her mountain dew, and I drove my scooter, with her shuffling along side out the door and into the rest of our lives. Thank you wolf shirt.
Pros: Fits my girthy frame, has wolves on it, attracts women
Cons: Only 3 wolves (could probably use a few more on the 'guns'), cannot see wolves when sitting with arms crossed, wolves would have been better if they glowed in the dark."

Tomorrow I am supposed to go shopping with my mom to get clothes for my internship, but I want to go to the Jazz festival at the Landing. I have never been before. I don’t know, we shall see. All in all today was pretty uneventful, aside from tonight. I am going to go enjoy Twilight and try not to fall asleep. I got a Daily Booth, too. http://dailybooth.com/kgoreee Creep me there too. Hoorah.


Last thing, my scarf I ordered from ModCloth came in, and I am in love with it.

Day 7 - Town Center, Allison

Today was another rough day. It started off pretty good though. Emily and I went to the mall, and lunch at Maginot’s. Seriously, she is the cheapest date ever. Combined, our bill at Maggiano's was $12. Awesome. That was also the only thing I have eaten all day, and its 1 AM and I may pass out. I am making some Texas Toast right now those, and it is most likely burning. The microwave broke today, so all of my left over’s from Kickbacks and Tijuana Flats cant be reheated. I am quite sad about that. My toast is most likely burning right now. Oh well. After Emily and I got back I finally took my commission over to Eileen’s. I was getting frustrated with the whole situation and I just don’t want to get into it here. Although I may not be getting paid for it. FML.

This after noon there was a tree dedication at St. Marks for Allison. Everyone has accepted what happened and they are dealing with it and being exposed to it every day, but I haven’t been home. That was really hard for me to do today. The second I go tout of the car, I saw Jessie Drew. My stomach just fell, I have barely talked to her since Allison died, and I had no idea what to say to her. We talked for a minute, and I ordered the shirt that Faction Habit made for Allison. We were there for a bit, and then I saw Drew for the first time. My heart literally broke. I feel so terrible for her. I have no idea what she is going through. The dedication was so sweet. The third graders at St. Marks chipped in and bought a live oak tree and benches and the whole area behind the office and by the playground is going to be in memory of Allison. They left a hole around the tree, and had the third graders come and put some dirt in. After the third graders, a lot of people went and did it too, and I started to cry when the Haramis’ and Jessie ad Hodson did it. I can’t image what this family is going through. Right after the dedication everything really sunk in. Everyone was happy and everything and I was miserable. I haven’t been around and it never really sunk in until today, seeing Drew and Jessie and the family. They found a beautiful statue that is going to go in the courtyard too, a ballerina to celebrate Allison’s spirit. It is beautiful.



I came home, cried, and then just passed out. I woke up at 11, and now I wont sleep for the rest of the night most likely. I am video chatting with Mikey right now, and about to enjoy my delicious toast. I talked with my mom for a long time tonight about Drew and Allison and about how they are doing. Everything has been really hard for them of course, and I just could not imagine what they are going through. They have been in my thoughts ad prayers since April 17 and they always will be.

Yet again, a Mitchell Davis video totally relates to my life.

Day 6 - Denise, Kickbacks, Rain

Today marked day four of the never ending rain. I checked Weather Channel and it is supposed to rain through the 29th. It was fun at first, but now the roads are basically just huge puddles and I do not appreciate that.

Last night I went to sleep with my window open, listening to the rain. I was out so fast, and I loved it. I woke up this morning at 8, to the rain, and my stomach was eating itself. So finally around 9:30 Jenn and I met for breakfast. I came home, got back in bed, and started to read, although I fell asleep again and didn’t wake up until about 3. Liam has been having trouble lately with school and our dad and whatnot, so he went to Denise today just to talk. I don’t really want to get into all of that here, but it was helpful. Afterwards we went to the Brick for dinner, and then I came home and went right out to dinner number 2 with Rob to Sake House. I have been spending more time with him lately and I am glad about that. It is far more frequent than other times I have been home. He gave me my birthday presents tonight, which I love. He got be an awesome flannel, which is light enough to wear in the summer, and a photo hanging thing, which he said is to only have pictures of him. Selfish Rob. Haha. The best thing by far was a new Book. Senior year we had little notebooks that we would write in and throw to each other during class, and in our lockers and for some reason we thought it was the best thing ever. So now we have a new book, and I cant wait to get started with that again.


Book and shirt.

Tonight also marked night 3 of going to Kickbacks. This time we actually ate, and I had some amazing potatoes and pasta, and Jenn said that her omelet was the best thing she had ever eaten. So I think that is a winner on the food aspect, along with social. Hoorah! In the back of their menu they have the “Vintage” section, which has things like Ramen noodles, Spaghetti-O’s, Hamburger Helper, Fluffernutter sandwiches, and a bunch more. That’s adorable ad hilarious. Even better, they have the Hamburger Helper du jour. I didn’t really do much today but it was relaxing. Tomorrow I have to get my camera fixed, since as of today it no longer opens. And I am taking Emily to the mall. In the rain. FML.

I am going to go to bed, reading with the window open yet again. This morning Jenn had big news, and she said her whole story, I commented, then presented my big news: "I slept with my window open last night." FAIL.

Last thing, Rob and I were Facebooking back and forth today with Texts From Last Night, and I accidentally posted one as my status that made me look terrible. Immediately I got texts and status comments from some creepers. It was an awesome five minutes until I realized that facebook and I were obviously not getting along. Then I cleared it but forget to delete it from my news feed, so it was still there. It was hilarious, but not the best as a status.

Facebooked TFLN:
(931): Also, i'm pretty sure i've had my birth control pill stuck in my throat since like...two pm. So i'll be practicing safe oral sex tonight.

FAIL
Also, I am still going back and watching a lot of Mitchell Davis' videos. I love this one so much.

Day 5 - Regency, Cheesecake, Lame

Today was just pretty laid back. Woke up and went to with Jenn to the mall. Came back home and actually unpacked, then went to dinner with Jenn and Adam then to Kickbacks and saw Lee and Mike and Mira. That is pretty much all that I have to saw about today. Lame, right?

All the mall, Regency, Jenn realized that they closed down the Walden Books that was there. Although she just said, “I can’t believe they took out the book store. Although the people at this mall probably can’t read.” Which is so true. We had a good day today. We were together for over 24 hours straight, aside from the 4 hours where she was at work.

Liam and my mom and I have been playing board games a lot recently. Like tight we got Tijuana Flats take out for dinner, and played Apples to Apples while we ate. After dinner we played Life and read the Westing Game. I think Liam is getting into it. Although I think I am just going to go and steal it out of his room tonight and read it for a while. I can’t stand only reading a couple chapters a day. Its crazy. I love this book too much to be patient. But then again, when am I ever patient?

Tomorrow Liam goes to my dad’s house. I am afraid that my dad will tell Liam then about Kathleen. I have decided that as much as I want to tell my mom, she has to hear it from my dad first. I shouldn’t be the one to tell her. Since my parents have gotten divorced, I have been the one to relay news and questions, and I am sick of it. And it isn't right to make me do that, especially in this situation. So I guess I will just find out tomorrow what will happen. That is, if Liam even goes over there. He pitches a fit usually because he hates going over there so much. He is just bored and it’s hard for him to be there and just watch TV. Tomorrow I also have to go and take the prints over to Eileen’s. The better of the two prints has little blue dots around the hem of the dress, so I have to tackle that in the morning. As usual, I have been hoarding things for my little memory book but I have yet to put anything in, and I also have all the candy wrappers ready for my next print. Although I have been too lazy to get it started. I mean I can just do the background here. I have to wait to do the actual print part until I get back to school since I need a press. I really want to get some berens and burens and blocks and just print straight from my room, just little things that don’t need a press. Although my mother would probably freak out since I will most likely get ink all over the carpeting.

As usual, my contact is about to fall out of my eyeball so I am just going to steal Liam’s book and get to sleep. Oh and today Jenn and I realized that when we laugh, we sound like Beavis and Butthead. Not attractive.

Day 4 - Accident, Kickbacks, MC

Today was another ridiculous day. Seriously, if my days continue to be an random as the last few days, I am in for one hell of a summer. This morning began with my phone interview with a man from my internship in Miami. We talked a bit about what I will be doing this summer and whatnot. Then I worked up the nerve to IM Jenn, although I promptly fell back asleep 2 minutes later. Awesome. Around 1 Emily Risdon called and I went and picked her up at St. Marks and we got lunch and I helped her study for her exams tomorrow. We hung out for a bit, and then decided to go to Target, because that’s how we roll.

On the way back from Target, Emily and I were in the car, in the turn lane on Roosevelt getting ready t turn left onto Longbow. There was a car in front of us and one other coming in the opposite direction. The light was green, and the car in front of us had plenty of time to turn, although he just wouldn’t go. When the car coming in the opposite direction was getting ready to pass through the intersection he went, and they smashed together. I felt like he timed it just so they would collide. Immediately Emily and I got out in the rain and called 911. The man who stupidly drove into the intersection was really old, and is car was wedged between two electric poles, making the stoplights go out. The woman who he hit has 3 children in the car, and the eldest girl in the front seat was hurt. We waited around for the police and rescue to come, and then we had to stay and talk to them for a while. I think every one was okay, but it was still scary.



Later on I just spent time with my mom and Liam, we played Life and read the Westing game, which is one of my favorite books ever. Liam doesn’t seem to be too enthused, but I am trying to get him excited about it.

Jenn and I hung out all night, which I am excited about. The endless stomachache is over. Hoorah! First we went to Starbucks in Five Points and I spilled scalding hot tea all over myself, and almost died. Well, I would have lived, but I almost cried. MC came over from where he works at the Sushi Café and hi boss eventually came over too. We took MacBook pictures, and MC acted like it was Christmas morning. He was elated.



From there, we went to Kickbacks, thinking it would just be a stop before heading to Shanty Town, but we ended up being there until after 2. We met a bunch of nice guys and hung out with them. It turned out to be an awesome night. I am exhausted now, and Jenn is sleeping over so I am just going to leave this as the worst post ever.

Day 3 - PVB, Rob, Jason, Emma

I am going to refer to today as "The Day of the Massive Stomach Ache." All day I was thinking about last night and everything that happened, and feeling terrible. I did not talk to Jenn at all, even though I wanted to text her so bad. I feel like that would just make things worse.

This morning I woke up to my Mom making me pancakes, which was wonderful. We went out to Ponte Vedra with Liam for the day, and met up with my grandmother and my cousin Patrick at my aunt's house. We pretty much just sat around and talked, and I had a really long talk with Granny Franny about Sweet Briar. I have decided (more like accepted) that I am miserable there. I realized today when I was talking to Granny about it, that it is a good fit academically, just not socially. I am not going to transfer, but I have been thinking a lot more about graduate school. Working at the hospital this summer will be good, because if it turns out to be something I enjoy, it would be a field I could easily go into right out of school. I want/need to get an MBA, although I will get my Masters and Doctorate in Art History before I am 50. That is my ultimate goal in life. How cool would it be to have a doctorate in Contemporary Art? That is what I would love to do. I love my grandmother so much, and talking to her makes me realize things and sort my thoughts.

We went to the Town Center for lunch and shopping. At Barnes and Noble I got my favorite magazines ever, as well as a new one called FOUND that I uh.... found. I haven’t really looked at it yet but it looks pretty cool. I will be up all night tonight reading that, Artforum, and Art on Paper.

For my birthday my mom got me a gift card to get a new iPhone since mine is a piece of crap and falling apart. Although when I went in my friends there told me to wait a while before I get a new one since there may be a new phone coming out this summer. So me and my good friend Cherry Darling will be sticking together for a bit longer. I guess that’s good, because I still hadn’t thought of a new name for my new phone. My phone now is Cherry Darling (Planet Terror), my Kindle is Dr. Dakota Block (also Planet Terror) and my iPod is Frankenstein. So I will think about that for a while.

I spent some time with Rob tonight, and it was different than it has been for a while. I think a lot about my senior year and how Rob and I spent every moment together, and I really miss that. And tonight it didn't feel forced like it does sometimes. We about peed ourselves when lightning hit right by his house right before we were going to go to the Loop for dinner. (I just realized I left my cup in my car and I am really thirsty....) I got my food and as always, the first thing he did was take a huge bite out of one of my chicken fingers. Although this time it scalded his mouth and the chicken along with a line of slobber fell from his mouth. Just as it happened a women walked in the door and watched the whole thing happen. She just shook her head and laughed, which made the whole situation about a thousand times funnier. After dinner our first thought was "Krispy Kreme," of course. We then discovered the hot sign is on until 10 now, which was thrilling.

After I left Rob's I went to the beach and hung out with Jason for a little bit. It was rainy and gross and the only thing we could figure out to do was to walk on the beach for a while. I felt bad because he has a broken toe and the sand was wet and hard to walk on, but he was a good sport about it. I wasn’t out there very long, and I was driving back home I realized that I hadn’t seen Emma yet, so I called her and met her at the Casbah with two of her friends. That sentence was unnecessarily long. I was there with her for about an hour and I think I am going to do something with her tomorrow.

In the last few days, I have realized something really odd about myself. I guess I realized it a long time ago, but it has been confirmed. I am an observer. In any given situation, I would much rather observe than partake. Like the other night at TSI, I would rather people watch than dance or socialize. I think this is the main thing that makes me so socially awkward. I am fine with that though. It may be part of my creative and artsy side that makes me do it, because I like to image these people’s lives and what they will do when they go home. I wish I could be invisible. I would go out so much and just watch people, never partaking in any of the activities, just observe. I don’t feel like this is creepy in the least bit, because I am not staring and watching, just observing and noting things. Alright that is even creepier.

Overall I had a decent day, but I had this nagging stomach ache all day, thinking about last night. No matter what I was doing, or how hard I was laughing at Rob in pain, I could not get last night out of my head. I have to fix this. I have a phone conference tomorrow morning at 9:30 (I feel so grown up) so I am going to get to sleep. No plans other than that tomorrow for the most part.

Day 2 - TSI

Tonight was probably the worst night ever. I was the worst friend I could possibly be. My night began by taking a nice, long nap. How can you go wrong there? Then I picked up Jenn and she and I went to pick up my cousin Patrick from the airport. On the way back from the airport, we made plans to go to Rob’s party for a bit then to TSI. So I took Patrick to my house, and got ready to go to TSI. Once we were at TSI I was not in the best mood. Bad music, not many people, and it was just a weird night. I have no clue what made me so angry, but I majorly took it out on Jenn. The whole night she was trying to get me to cheer up but I wouldn’t. Her friends Adam and Clayto from Thursday night were there and we hung out with them for a bit. Adam and I talked, mainly about Jenn when she wasn’t around. Before we left he asked for my number, and about a thousand things went through my head. I know his intentions were pure, but it came off really badly. I tried to protest but I failed miserably I gave in, and gave him my number. My thought was that he wanted to talk about something we had been talking about off an on all night.

Long story short, Jenn and I got into a big fight. I acted so selfishly and stupidly and I obviously made the wrong choice not only in this situation, but in the whole night. I was ride to her all night when she did nothing at all to deserve it. I messed up so badly I cannot think of how to fix this situation. Some things were said tonight that hurt me worse than I thought imaginable, but I deserved it all. I don’t know what to do.

On a lighter, less tressful note, I took Liam to see Monsters vs Aliens today. It was cute . I was not too excited about seeing it, but there was this one part that I was cracking up in. I don;t know why, but I usually find things to be humorous, but I am always keeping it to myself, or not laughing. No idea why. I am weird. This part had be cracking up for a solid minute. The clip is most likely going to removed since the person filmed it in the theater, but I will try. I may not be as humorous out of context, but still.

After that I came home and pretty much just had a long talk with my mom. I tried to get it out about my dad and Kathleen, but I couldn't do it. I then had to go drop off Liam at my dad's, and there was this guy there who was helping him move tiles. He was only a few years older than me, but he was hitting on me in front of my dad, and even better, my dad did nothing to stop it. Ugh.

I have spent hours today watching all of livelavalive' videos. I feel like I am have a really unhealthy relationship with YouTube. I spend at least an hour every day, usually when I am trying to go t bed at night, watching videos. A good amount of time is spent watching my 90-some-odd subscriptions, then Stumbling to get more or just browsing the featured videos. that is how I found livelavalive. He is hilarious. I have watched this video multiple times today and I love it. I just need to figure out who to send it to.... Oh. You!

That is all for today. I am thankful to end this day. Goodness. I want to talk to Jenn so badly but I know if I try to will pester her and make things worse. I am the worst friend ever.