This morning Jenn came over and we made muffins. More like she watched me mix them and then burn them. And I burned my finger. St. Marks had their last day of school today, so my mom and I took Liam and Jack to the pool and had lunch. I saw some girls from high school which is always fun. People I care to just never see again. I am ready to get out of Ortega. Everyone is stuck up. I don’t get it. And today just confirmed it. I don’t get some people.
So apparently I give awesome advice when I am drunk. Last night I was talking to a bunch of different people and giving advice, and apparently it was amazing advice. Then this morning I was trying to help Jenn with something and I had no clue what to say. I can only give good advice when drunk. Not good.
This afternoon I went to Sports Authority to get Liam’s baseball coaches end of the season gifts. I took I-295 as usual to get to Blanding, although I was a little excited listening to Ratatat, and I missed my exit. Usually that’s no big deal. However this time I had to go 10 miles out of the way and a 10-minute drive ended up taking a half hour. O barely made it back to Ortega in time for an appointment with Denise. Turn out I didn’t have to be there at all, and I accidently fell asleep in the waiting room. That was awkward to wake up to the receptionist staring at me.
I took a nap this afternoon and had a serried of really weird dreams. The weirdest was a dream where I went skiing with Eddy Ospina. Why?
I saw my grades tonight, and I was really disappointed. I worked harder this semester than I had in past semesters at school. I got all A’s and B’s, but a D in Spanish. I hated Spanish with a passion, and I am not surprised I got a D. My GPA was only lowered a little bit, but it is so frustrating that all of the work I did basically just got erased by one class. Good thing is that I don’t have to deal with Spanish anymore. I wanted to go to the art show at Ocean Club with Jenn tonight but because of my grades I couldn’t go and I feel bad. “/
I have spent the evening watching TV, which is something I never do. Now I am watching Frasier. Odd. I think I am going to sleep in the TV room tonight. I’m cozy. Jenn sleeps on this couch a lot. I’m guessing it’s comfy. I guess I will find out.
The weather has been getting a lot better lately. Today I took full advantage and went to the beach with Jason. Watched him surf for a bit and just walked around. This evening was the Village dance recital. I wanted to go, but I stayed back with Liam instead. They did a piece just for Allison in the beginning, which was apparently really sweet.
I love how when I am typing “Sweet” into Word it auto corrects to Sweet Briar College. Jason saw the Sweet Briar sticker on my car today and wouldn’t stop making fun of the name. Granted, it is a sort of silly name for a school. And it sounds so girly. Sweet Briar. Pfft.
I found out today that I don’t have to go to Miami for another week. I am so excited about that. I still haven’t unpacked from school, and I don’t feel like I have had very much time getting everything together to head down there. I am glad I have more time to sort everything out. Tomorrow I am supposed to get some stuff from Tenet to complete, like a drug screening and what not.
Tonight Rob and I went to sonic, like old times, and then just drove around trying to figure out what to do. In what he said was our greatest adventure in the last 2 years, we drove though Riverside and Avondale and ended up at the park at Stockton. We recoded a video from Sonic that perfectly shows our relationship. Some people act differently when they are being recorded, but sadly enough this is exactly how Rob and I are. He hit me enough today to leave some intense bruises I’m predicting. We will find out in the morning.
Today was pretty laid back. I just had a hair appointment and went to the dentist. I usually love going to the dentist, but today it was miserable. The nurse was a tad too rough, and there was too much blood for my liking. After my hair appointment I went to Smoothie King to see Emma before I came home to do laundry. We were just standing in there talking, and this guy came in. He was super tan, orange tan, and had the spiky hair and oddly pouty lips look about him. I couldn’t help but laugh at him. He asked for a large smoothie, and as usual Emma asked if he knew how big that was, and he was like, “Its alright. I can handle it. Bigger is better.” All while still wearing his sunglasses. He was he definition of a douche bag.
This afternoon I hung out with Liam and went to dinner with Emma. Emma hung out here for a few hours tonight and we just sat around and talked. I deleted over 900 people off of my Facebook, and that felt awesome. I really can’t think of anything interesting from my day today to share. Oh well. Tomorrow will be a good day.
Today was lame. Ill just leave it at that. All I did was work clothes shopping, dinner with dad, TSI and Kickbacks. My mom and I talked about my dad being engaged today. That was pretty much the highlight of my day. She told me this afternoon before I went to go have dinner with my dad, because she apparently knew and wanted to give me a heads up. I told her that I have known, and I told her about how I found out about it. I cant tell if she is upset or not about it. I am pissed though because when my grandmother died, she left me a lot of really beautiful jewelry that I was supposed to get when I turned 18. I am 20 now, and I have never seen any of it. Apparently my dad gave Kathleen one of my rings as her engagement ring. Tonight at dinner I told my dad that my mom knows, and we started to talk about it for a bit. My mom had told me about the ring thing, so I asked him if he had bought her a ring. And he said no, that he was still looking. I told him that I know she has a ring, and he fessed up that he gave her one of Nana Helen’s. I made sure he knew that its my ring, and I told him that I am 20 now and I want all of my jewelry back to my by August. It is mine, and I do not want that woman wearing my ring. After diner Jenn and I went to TSI for a cookout then Kickbacks for dessert. Both places were pretty dead though.
There is something that has been bothering me for a while, that I feel like the majority of my friends do. With my core group of friends, we are all addicted to our cell phones. With any of them, we go out to eat and we are texting almost the whole time, and it’s all right. We all have an understanding that we aren’t being rude, and we are still paying attention. With a few people I feel like that has been abused lately. Like out to dinner and I am trying to have a conversation and I am being completely ignored. Also, lately I have felt like a bunch of people I have been spending time with choose to constantly talk about how popular they are. That was an odd sentence to word. So many times lately I have heard “Oh my god so man people just texted me,” “So many people just asked me to hang out today,” “My phone wont stop blowing up,” etc. I feel that is just one of those things that you shouldn’t feel the need to talk about. Maybe that is just me, since most people do that. It makes me feel bad because I don’t have many friends left in Florida, and when ever I am down here I have a small pool of people to spend time with, and hearing about other people’s amazing social lived makes me feel pretty shitty. Give me Virginia, and I am set, but not so much here anymore. I don’t know if I am over reacting, and this is just normal, or if it only applies to my friends. Everyone seems to be doing this lately.
I have been thinking about some things more lately, and these small things are really starting to get on my nerves. Just stupid small things that no one notices, but they are all really huge to me.
I leave for Ft. Lauderdale in a few days, on Sunday. I got some clothes today for work. I have mixed feelings about going still. I will only get a total of 4 weeks in Jacksonville this summer, and I am really not okay with that. I had a rough year at school, and I need down time. I know I am going to enjoy this job and learn a lot; I just don’t want to deal with the stress and the work I have to do for school to get credit for this on top of normal work. I am trying to be positive about it though. I was talking to Colton earlier, and I told him about my job:
Colton Lane: What are u doing after that?? Kate Gorman: living in ft Lauderdale for 2 months Colton Lane: Damn Colton Lane: Party Kate Gorman: haha i wish Colton Lane: What are u gonna be doing there? Kate Gorman: working Colton Lane: Oh yeah? Doing what?? Kate Gorman: marketing for a hospital. its gonna be rough Colton Lane: That sounds like a grown ass lady job Kate Gorman: hahaha Kate Gorman: I like that Colton Lane: Yeah for real though Colton Lane: That sounds like a legit job Kate Gorman: its an internship, so its more of a fake real job Colton Lane: I am proud of u Kate. Kate Gorman: Thanks Colton Lane: I'm for real like none of my friends ever do anything with the lives. But like it seems like u are Colton Lane: That's cool Kate Gorman: thanks. Im trying. Colton Lane: Yeah I realize that may seem a little weird to hear Colton Lane: But.... I'm kinda wasted so its alright lol
That was nice to hear, except for the last part….
Tomorrow I have random appointments then hopefully hanging out with Emma. I just realized that I have been listening to the Beauty and the Beast soundtrack in the background while typing this, without realizing it. Hm…. Changing. Back to my current favorite song, which SURPRISE, brings the livelavalive video I am in love with right now. I love Ghostland Observatory, and I love that he used this song in a video.
Today was just hilarious. This morning Jenn, my mom and Liam and I went out to Ponte Vedra and just layed out by the pool. I actually got some sun, unfortunately my arms are burned and my nose is a little red. Nothing too exciting happened while we were there, and pretty much all day Jenn and I were trying to figure out what we were going to do tonight. Hardcore Prom was at the Pit and I did not want to go at all. If I was right about the bands that were going to be playing, I would have seen a lot of people who I never want to see again.
I finally decided to go, and we get there and there were so many people there. It was crazy. And of course since Jenn and I haven’t been going to shows for a while, and it was out at the beach, we knew about two people there at first. We eventually went inside and we saw a bunch of our friends there. Jason lives nearby so he came to hang out, and eventually it got to be more fun. I saw a bunch of people who I never care to see again, and although my stomach flipped a few times, it wasn’t nearly as bad as I had expected. The two that I thought would put me in tears were always in my line of vision, and that sucked. One noticed me and tried to get my attention but I just ignored him. I am done dealing with that.
There was some girl who I don’t know that was really nice who had a birthday today. So in celebration of being 18, a bunch of people were taking her to the strip club and Jenn and I ended up going too. It was hilarious. We went to Dollhouse, where Rob and I have always wanted to go. We met a stripper named Renee who was very nice, and very talented. Thanks to Axell for paying for Jenn and I to go.
Tonight I got a call from a friend from school saying that a girl in our year was in a bad accident and she’s not doing too well. So many people have been getting hurt lately I hate it. Keri was in an accident, and it left her with massive internal bleeding and apparently part of her leg had to be amputated. If anyone actually reads this, please pray for her and her family.
This morning I woke up to my aunt and cousin coming over to wait on UPS. UPS said they would be there between 10 and 11 and nor surprisingly they didn't show. But at like 11:30 there was a knock on the door and surprisingly it was the UPS man. We spent the next few hours hanging art. We got a bunch of original Duaivs and an original Peter Max, which I was basically salivating over. I never thought I would own a Peter Max. He is easily the most famous living artist, and when he dies he is going to be as famous as Warhol. The house looks amazing with all of the new art. There were these terrible pictures of me in the bathroom in a bathing suit from when I was 15 and those got replaced. Thank god. Marsha loaded up her car with a bunch more pieces, some Duaivs and an original copy of a Rembrandt sketch. It's so amazing.
This afternoon all I did was sleep. I got no sleep last night and this morning I was up far too early for my liking. This evening my mom, Liam, Jenn and I all came out to Ponte Vedra to have dinner. My aunt made all of my favorites. It was delicious. Jenn and I left Ponte Vedra and came back to my house and got changed and went out. Justin was having a party at his house and Jarrett told me to go out there. Last time I was at Justin’s was over thanksgiving break. It was easily the nest night of my thanksgiving break. It was just me, Jarrett, Perry, and Justin and some other guy, and they were all so wasted and stoned. Perry was so stoned he was asleep on the couch the whole time I was there and I couldn't wake him up. So tonight there were a few more guys there, including Trevor who I see almost every time I go to the mall. Jenn be I realized that we have never played beer pong together and we fixed that. Last time I was there Jarrett made me play even though I told him that I am easily the worst beer pong player in the world, and he made me play again last night. Right before we played and during my heart started freaking out. My heart has been fine once last summer and having it randomly race like it did tonight really scared me. It was worse than it was last summer, and I could barely breathe. I don't know why that was happening. I barely drink any caffeine now and there was mo reason for it to do that. It was scary.
After we left Justin’s we went to TSI. Jenn ad I were driving around downtown trying to find a parking spot to go to VyStar, and the whole time I was about to pee myself. We finally got to TSI and Jenn was changing her clothes so I peed in the corner of the parking lot. I can't remember the last time I did that, but tonight I was pretty proud of myself for some really odd reason.
Anyways. TSI was fun. We danced and hung out and there weren't very many people there. My heart kept racing the whole night and it was hard to ignore. We were sittng by the pool tables towards the end of the night and this guy asked to play with him. He was so drunk it was hilarious. He didn't understand that you have to put money into the pool table to get the balls out. We finally started to play and that's when the creepy began. While either Jenn or I was playing our turn, he would get behind either of us that were still standing there and rub our backs and just scoot towards us when we moved away. When he talked he got so close our noses touched and I had nowhere to back up. When we were dome playing he asked me "so you want my number or what?" haha ew. Jenn came over and we just laughed at him. We decided to go dance and left him then all of the sudden he was creeping right behind us. It was funny yet creepy.
My heart still has me worried. If it happens again I will have to go back to the hospital. Which is not something I want to do. Obviously.
Tomorrow Jenn and I are going back out to Ponte Vedra to lay out by the pool and have a cook out. I didn't update my Daily Booth today either. I can't slack this early in the summer
